Can You Hear Me (GxG)

Royalty

Sept,23,2015

Dear Royalty,

Have you ever been tired of being tired? Have you ever been tired of being or feeling unwanted? Have you ever felt trapped in your own skin? Have you ever felt like you were running away from yourself, running away from your past but it slowly creeps upon you. You can keep on running and trying to hide it but NO MATTER what it still seems to find you. Well i can NO longer run there's no hiding the fact that my past still haunts me. NOTHING can change the fact that it happen the scars, the pain the memory. It haunts me every single day. No matter how hard I try to forget the memories its still going to be there. Those eyes, those hands, that voice repeatedly playing in my head. "I made you into a woman, you wanted it an now you got it. I took your virginity and there's NOTHING you can do about it." He said. I couldn't do anything but cry how can you do that to someone. How can you be proud of sexually abusing a child your own daughter (Step daughter) it's not right the abuse the pain I can't take it anymore. Should i just end it all or maybe I should wait he'll do it himself.

Help Me As I Drown In My Own Tears.

I woke up from my sleep looking around. I notice I fell asleep while writting in my journal , i got up and went to the shower before "HE" woke up. I did my same morning routine when I got done I walked to my room but got rudly stopped by my step dad DeMonte . He looked me up and down licking his lips. I backed up to the wall and tried to run to my room but he pulled me back by my hair making me let loose of my robe. He choked me up against the wall and started to rub all over me.I kicked him in his private area an tried to run but he pulled me back."Where you think you going you little bitch". DeMonte said. He then pulled me to the ground and started punching me repeatedly ,for what reason i don't know. Only thing i could do is scream for help but of course nobody came for help nobody heard me. "Keep screaming and yelling i'm give you something to scream and yell about." He said with anger. I felt blood dripping from my head and nose. After he was done having his way I slowly start to black out my vision went in and out then everything went black. The only thing I remembered was my body sore everywhere I knew that once i woke up my face was going to look terrible.

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(( The Next Day ))

I woke up still laying on the floor naked. I limped back up to my room and grabbed me some clothes then headed to the bathroom. I soaked my body in hot water it hurt so bad but felt so good I hurried this time. When i got done I ran to my room and finished getting dressed after i got done with my last finishing touches. I grabbed a suit chase and began to pack my clothes. When i was done it was around 2:30 or 3:00 pm DeMonte should be home any minute now so i grabbed my four bags && ran out the back door. I ran until i couldn't run any more. Looking around i notice i was at some old abandoned building, I went in and saw an old worn out bed. It was starting to get late so i looked then threw my suit chase and took out my sheet, pillow and, cover. Once my head hit the pillow i was out like a light.

I woke up in the middle of the night due to sound of people talking. I looked around but didn't see nothing. I grabbed my phone and to use the light ,when i looked up I seen two guys an some chick trying to steal my clothes. Hey!? i yelled. Give me back my damn clothes. Awwwe shit. They whispered They drooped the things they had in the hand ran off out the door. Ugh I need to find me a job and I mean fast. I looked around in the placed and found some wood. I placed it under the door an one up under the door knob I did the same for windows and other doors that lead outside.

When I woke up the next day I was determined to get me a job. I got up && looked for a rest room. When i found the rest room I was pleased cause it was really nice looking compared to the outside of the building. I took a bird bath/quick wash up. When I got done I looked in the mirror at my face, how am I going to get a job with all these cuts && bruises. I decided to wear some make up today just to cover up the bruises && cuts. After i got done I left out the building to start my day.

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