Hey you probably won't read this or even know it's about you because I'm still confused on who this is about but it's how I feel. I met you last year and I saw you and I thought, "Alissa don't, don't you dare fall for her don't don't you dare, she straight a girl that beautiful is never in to girls or at least in to girls like you. Don't be an idiot Alissa, please", but I did. I fell for you but I knew I had no chance with you I know I'm not your type or anyone else's type I mean look at me, but whatever. This year I fell for you again, I hate this I really do because the only reason I hang on to my feelings for you is because I hope to have a chance even though you don't know what you want and that probably you like someone else. Why do I put my self through this when nothing good is gonna come out it.? You only sees me as a friends and talk about the person you actually want to me and I sit there and I try not feel my heart shatter into a million pieces but I can't. Why do i hold on to this and why to I hope for this when I already know it's not gonna end well for me? I always say If things end badly or if they end I know I'm gonna hurt but I'd be the happiest person if we even had shot together but I'll be happy as long as I know we will alway be there for each other. But how and why do you have this hold on me why, I'm not in love I know not fall too quick because I know what kind of an idiot I am, just don't tell me you need me or want me because you know I'm the only one waiting and hoping for you to actually care and feel the same way back. We could be more than friends or friends for ever just don't screw me over, that's all I ask please?
