November 30th, 2014
my chest feels vacant & my mind is crowded. when he's gone is when I'm back to "old Jamie." I don't feel right with him not by my side. I just need a hug. my heart aches, my mind races. It's getting harder to catch my breath. my eyes blur a little, I'm used to this by now. I see a black vignette, I feel my emotions scatter, I feel so woozy. I'm floating on air, it makes my stomach hurt. that queasy feeling when something makes you sick to your stomach, yeah that one. it's getting harder & harder to see with this black crowding my vision. my legs are weak so I can barely walk. there's one solution. i find my way to my shelf, careful not to be louder than necessary, & grab the book. I turn to page 35, one of my favorite songs by La Dispute, & see the shiny unused metal gleaming back at me.
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Lost in Love
RandomJamie is a small girl, from a big town. Nobody ever seems to get what she's going through, but I wouldn't blame them. She's hard to figure out & even harder to get close to. Figure out why, while I tell you the story of a girl that never seems to wi...
