Recording Life

1. Moving Forward

                                                                          

Your life revolves around what you choose to do, not what it chooses to throw at you

As a child I was simple. I believed that everyone was good, that my life would always stay the same, and that someday I would make the world smile. When I started searching for this "potion of happiness" to "save the world" I tried comedy, but as a kid, everything was hilarious to me, but no one else. I tried to get into art, and I was pretty good at it if I say so myself, but I didn't believe that my stick figures could be the answer. From there, I almost gave up until I met my first friend.

This other kid who was only 2 months older than me had a passion, and that passion was having fun. Everyday that I saw him he had the same three things to talk about: The game he was playing, the girl he liked, and the new song he'd listened to. Yet every time I saw him, he had the same giant smile on his face, and I aimed to spread that smile to others.

Eight years passed, and a lot happened. I joined advanced choir, learned guitar, made people smile daily, fell in love, had my heart broken, but always continued smiling and enjoying life. If as a child I was a simple toon, then has a young adult I was a complete symphony. Everything I knew was building so peacefully. My song was growing.

Now, my first friend had moved away, I'm still in touch with him, but my second friend was still here. She was one of the most caring people you could've had the honor of meeting. A simple gamer who's goal was to make a game that would change the world.

And when she went overseas to follow her dream, she died.

This... destroyed my song. I became depressed, sick, hollow, like everything in the world was not worth fighting for including myself until I found her last letter to me.

She said "Are ya havin fun? You're not breaking girls hearts are you. I'll boop ya if you are Bear. Remember that you are my precious little brother and that you have a job to do, and that's to keep everyone who you care for smiling. Somedays it will be hard, but there's always another song to sing..." I stopped reading there, crying because I knew I was failing her. Then I remembered my childhood dream, and I realized what I had to do.

Everyday there are people going through the pain I have gone through. Feeling the emptiness, the anger, the madness that keeps on piling up inside to the point where they want to scream but their throats are clogged by the words they want to say. Where the truth is sitting in their eyes but every time no one can see it because it's hidden in the lies that expresses joy and the message that they are ok. When in reality their line is turning thin suffocating the fire of life that burns dim and their mind is tainted by the words of their friends who question why he says he's not ok or why she doesn't feel the same because knowing that they are different is driving them insane.

But I am here to tell you that there is a way. There is, a chance to escape the madness in the healthiest of ways. You have to take control of life, no matter how scary or hard it may seem there is another way rather than making it stop with a knife.

If there's a song in your heart, sing it, if there's a story in your mind then bring it, if there is a home you want to create then you build it because this world is yours, not theirs, not mine, it's yours to create.

And when the world tries to stop you, you keep moving forward. And if there's someone you care about, then you push them forward because you have the power to change and save lives. So long as you choose to live your life first.

I looked back on her message after setting my purpose to make a song that will touch all hearts.

and the end it said this:

"Your life revolves around what you choose to do, not what it chooses to throw at you."

My name, is Crezetheous Valeraan. This is my story and my reason for pushing forward. This is my song.

And now, I want to help you, bring your song to life.