Miracle's pov
"Shut the fuck up Miranda!! My father yelled in my mom"s face trying to get around her to get to me. "Why are you always hitting on her? Leave her the fuck alone," mom yelled back still standing strong as my shield.
I came from the hospital two weeks ago but my father never uttered a word to me. He just looked at me in this weird way as if i made everything up. Today was when everything that was in him came out. He destroyed everything in the house yelling out that i made shit up. How can i make up the fact that my own cousin raped me? I cried everytime that i remembered what happened, it's something i will never forget. No matter how many years go by, i will never let it go.
"The little bitch is not even saying shit," he continued yelling. I just sat there while they argued. I was not afraid of him anymore, i had no feelings left in me. I honestly was just waiting on death itself to claim me.
"You kno that it was your mother fucking boyfriend that raped you!!! He said as he slapped me, why the fuck would yvon rape you? Now he is missing.
He continued slapping me while my mom yelled trying to pull him away. Me? I just sat there taking it all in. The only thing that hurt me was his words, but the hugs and kisses he gave me i just welcomed them with my arms wide open. Yes i still refer to his punches and slaps as hugs and kisses. They were the only kind of love that he showed me and i accepted it. They were apart of me now.
"Say something", he continued to yell while hitting me. I felt blood gush out out of my mouth but i did'nt bother to clean it up. After a while he gave up then walked away, my mom ran to me hugging me but i just pushed her away not wanting her to come near me.
"Where are you going baby? She questioned as i got up and walked towards the door. I did't answer her though i refuse to speak to anyone except Mario. He wanted me to move in with him but mom was on dad's side, meaning that they debated against it.
I felt the wind slap me across the face as it blew. I pulled my jacket closer to my body then started my journey into the darkness towards Mario's house. "Miracle get back here! I heard her yell from a distance. I totally ignored her, i wasnt a fan of her's anymore. My mind drifted off to her telling me the story of how her and dad tried too abort me.
"Your father never wanted any girls", she said as she placed a bandaid on a bruise that i had on my upper left eye. (It was the first time he ever laid his hands on me, i was five years old. ) "why mwomy am i bad chwild? I asked my mom trying to pronounce my words properly. "No sweetheart it's just that he is going through somethings right now. "Why is yous drinks blweach " i questioned her again. Your father told me to drink it because it would abort you but it never did. I drank hot water and took pills upon pills but it did not affect you. Before she could finish the story i was crying like no tomorrow. "I nwot gwood chwild" , i said as i sniffled. No sweetheart dont say that your a great child and i love you. I will protect you always ok and i promise. "Pwinky pwomise? I remembered asking her . Yes sweety pinky promise and with that she kissed my forehead.
End of flash back
She broke the promise, not entirely but she could have prevented most things that he did to me from happening. Sometimes i wondered why did she even tell me that story at such a young age? I never got the chance to ask her that question. I remembered the first time he laid his hands on me. I was five yeard old and drew hearts in my parents room telling them how much i loved them. He came home later that day and gave me a whopping that i will never forget.
I heard dogs barking from a distance, as soon as i approached them they just scattered off in fear. Even the dogs were afraid of me a tear trickled down my face as i stopped in front of a house to see a family celebrating their daughter's sweet sixteen. I never had a birthday party and neither had i ever went to one. I pulled my scarf around me tighter as i walked off quickly trying to avoid the wave of sadness to take over.
I sat on a corner in the middle of the night and just looked up at the sky. "What have i ever done to you? I whispered sliently hoping that God would answer me back.
"You ok maam? Someone in a car asked stopping in front of me. I just nooded my head in response to the guy but he stayed there. "AM GOOD!!! I yelled hoping that he would leave, but all he did was came out of the car rested a piece of paper next to me then pulled off. I looked next to me at the piece of paper then shoved it in my pocket. I kept starring at the ground, wishing that it would open up to swallow me.
I sighed as i felt another car stop in front of me. "I said am g..." , i was cut off by someting being placed over my head an in my mouth. I did'nt get a chance to see anything i just felt my self being shoved into a vehicle then it pulled off.
