My Trust For His Love

Chapter 16

Jasmine's POV

I walked out the room with my head down. I know I'm like thug but a girl has feelings too. I might put in a coverup but even that can break. It's like I'm suppose to go through all this mess. Everyone is either worried or angry. Jacé hates me. He cant even look at me good. It's like I'm a poison to him, as if I'm slowly infecting him and he trying to find a cure. He blames me for his state. Blame me for everything. I think i deserve it all, if i had gone and get a nice job and earned money the right way this wouldn't ever had happened. I wouldn't have been a hit to Juan, mom wouldn't have been shot, nobody wouldn't have been hurt this much.

Lost in my world of thoughts, i collided in someone. Looking up i saw it was Juan.

"Sorry" i mumbled and was walking away when he grabbed me and embraced me.

"It's ok to show your true feelings. Why do you have to walk around everyday being the infamous female thug? You have a life Jas, one you need to live without going the wrong way. Tell him how you feel, cry if you need to. Baby girl just stop keeping it in cause it'll hurt so bad than how it actually feels."

"It hurts Juan. He hates me and he blames me for it all. I'm the reason for all this. If i had gone and get employed at a nice company and work hard to make it at the top i wouldn't be in this situation now, we wouldn't be going through this."

My body shook uncontrollable as i cry. A cry for pain, a cry of past mistakes, a cry for the deaths I've caused, a cry for my family and a cry for myself. The significance behind it all was that i can't go on like this because I'm truly broken inside out.

"I know he's upset. I've heard - we've heard you guys arguing but give him time to calm down. I know he must like you still. You know we've been through a lot together and we're here still together and just that means something. Find out the meaning and build on that; view it as your foundation."

He kissed me on the forehead before he whispers, "Go get his milk or we'll have to call a doc to get that thing out his ass"

He walked away while I went to fetch the milk. I had different flavors so i mixed them all. That's strawberry, chocolate and vanilla. I even added egg nog to it. The more flavours, it'll taste yucky so he'll pass it out.

I made my way up to room carrying it to the room. I passed my mom on the way but she didn't look up on me or say anything. I think she is still upset.

I placed it on the night table to the side and shook Jacé awake.

"What Jas?"

"The milk. I mixed three flavors together and add egg nog to it so you can pass that thing out."

"Sounds fucking nasty and disgusting for me to drink."

"Thought that was the whole point," i said looking at him.

He stared at me for a while then say, "Yeah i know. You know egg nog makes me sick right or you have forgotten?"

"Makes it even better for you then plus it doesn't matter what i remember or not when you don't even care about my feelings. I guess yo baby mama got you a way but wait i don't think she has it all or you wouldn't be out searching for me," i said

"Baby Momma?" He asked getting up.

"Yes baby momma. As in that trifling lil bitch you had in the office with the cute lil girl. Yeah that's the one"

"Shut up. Don't talk about what you don't know"

"You got the nerves playing with her and then looking for me. Mhmm i bet you it's because of her lil stretch out ugly looking cunt that made you search for something of a better quality."

"Shut the fuck up" he growled but i continued anyways.

"She cant get you to come. Can't get that fucking dick to stand or she cant flick or ride like i do. Her pussy cant clench around you that good and can't even cream your cock."

"Jasmine!" He said in a low threatening tone.

"No don't call me. I bet if you had this pussy here now it'd make you come hard. You could feel how wet and how it's throbbing now. Yeah you could." I said taking off my clothes slowly.

"Enough!" He shouted and i freezed. That tone was different I've heard it before. It gives off so much power and now that he looks at me i can feel the anger he now has.

"You never listen do you Jasmine? You never ask or think before you jump. You think this is a game and like playing it or is it you find so much fun in criticizing others. Stop giving my fucking sister a label. Sister you thinking who I'm talking well the same woman you called a whore and baby momma, the sane woman who has been through enough to make it out a alive and to live day by day for what family she has left. That little girl, my niece her top priority. So if you want to call persons name you should look in the mirror and the reflection you see will show how trifling you at now stripping; trying to use your body against me."

"I---i didn't kn-" i started but was interrupted "Of course you didn't think so how would you know. Here i was about to apologize for earlier bit now you had to say all this and I'm so hurt and upset to punish you but at the same time i want to push my dick inside you and fuck you senseless. So tell me dear what you expect me to do?"

"Fuck," i moaned as he kissed me at my neck. He was fumbling with my top until it came off and he unclasped my bra making me bare in front of him. He knead my breast and whispered sweet nothings in my ear. He took a nipple in his mouth sucking while rubbing and pulling the other. I let out a moan putting my hand in his hair only for him to pull away and went to drink the milk.

Halfway through the drink he spoke, "Hot and bothered eeh? Too sad you won't be getting this anytime soon. If we going to do this maybe it's time i had your trust for my loving."