Everynight I look over to the bathroom now. I think it would be better if I just go. If I just slip away, disappear. I've shut my whole family out now and the only person I talk to is Troye. Troye. His familiar name sends shivers up my spine. I walk over to the bathroom I look at myself in the mirror.
"You dirty dog" I say.
I pick up the knife that was once used and look at it. Dried blood covers the once shiny surface. I think;
Is this the way I want to go, kill myself now?
I sit on my bed. I wait for Troye. When he gets here, he rushes up to my room. Only to see me crying.
"Galaxy are you okay?" He says.
"T-Tyde he's going to die..." I sob
"No he's not, he's a fighter. He'll fight to the end, for you" he whispers.
"I can't not since what happened to Miracle" I say
Flash back
"Miracle no don't do this" I scream
"My life is worth nothing, I'm a piece of sh*t" she yells.
She brings the knife to her heart.
"NO!" I scream
Her lifeless body falls to the ground. I break down. I don't know what to do because at the time I was only 12.
End of flash back.
"He's going to be okay. Galaxy? Galaxy!" He says
"Huh oh what, what?" My vision blurs.
I black out and wake up with Troye cradling me in his arms.
Standing in the eye of the storm
My eyes start to roll
To the curl of your lips
In the centre of eclipse
In total darkness I
I reach out and touch.
He sings so beautifully. I love him.
"T-Troye?" I ask.
"Yes. My little girl" he says.
He called me HIS little girl. A shiver goes up my spine. His hands rub circle on the small of my back. His presence comforts me.
" I-I love you" I mumble.
"Well I love you more" he says.
I drift off to sleep feeling like I'm a Galaxy away.
I wake up to Troye on the phone.
"WHAT DO YOU MEAN? NO HES A FIGHTER HE'LL MAKE IT. NO YOU LISTEN TO ME. WE WILL FIND A WAY TYDE IS GOING TO MAKE IT. I DONT CARE IF IT WILL COST $9000 WE WILL FIND A WAY!" He screams.
He hangs up the phone. A distressed look spread across his face. He sits down next to me unaware that I'm awake. His heads in his hands.
"He's not going to make it. Is he?" I say expecting the worst.
"Well we could send him to a specialist to get his kidneys replace, but it will cost nine thousand dollars" he says doubtful
I start sobbing. Troye cradles me in his arms. He runs his fingers through my hair. He hums DKLA by Troye Sivan. He knows he's my favourite artist. In fact Troye knows more about me then anyone. I suddenly black out. Like its to much for me. I remember the state of my mums face when I came home. Her eyes bloodshot her hair wild. Dad was on the phone crying. I start singing.
Don't you wanna see a man up close
A Phoenix in the fire
So kiss me on the mouth and set me free
But please don't bite.
And at that moment Troye leans down and kisses me on the mouth. I kiss back. I wrap my arms around his neck. He puts his round my waist. We fall back on the bed. I pull out of the kiss.
Kiss me on the mouth
And set me free
But please don't bite.
Troye miles and kisses me. I love just laying down here. With him comforting me. His hands running through my hair. I try not to worry to much about Tyde. I get a call from Gabrielle.
"Gab how's Tyde?" I ask sadly
"Not good sis, he's breathe but it's 4 every minute so not much. The doctors said he might not make but I don't believe them. Tydes a fighter he's going to make it. He will okay Galaxy? He will-" she breaks off mid sentence.
"Gab? Hello Gab!" I try to see if she's still there.
"I'm so sorry Galaxy. But the doctors have said that he's in a coma. He's alive but in a coma." She says.
"That's better then being dead I suppose..." I say.
" he might not ever wake up you know" she says warily.
"I know that but there's a chance" I say.
"Gab can Tyde still here me if he's in a coma?" I ask bluntly
"Yes he can why?"
"Put the phone near his head so he can hear me"
Gabrielle does as I ask. She places the phone next to Tydes ear. I ask Troye to hold the phone for me. He does but as well as that he slips and arm around me. I start singing my possibly last song to Tyde.
Trying not to fall home
On the way home
You were trying to way me down
...
To long till the weekend
To long...
Leave this blue neighbour hood
Never knew loving could hurt this good
And it drives me wild
...
Wild noise in my mind
Won't calm your all I think about
Running on the music on the night highs
When the light runs out its just been me and you
...
I here the last beep. And I hear Tyde take his last breath.
"NOOO!!" I scream
I drop the phone and collapse in a fit on the ground I start shaking all over and I run screaming and sobbing with Troye chasing after me. And I run to where the place Tyde lies lifelessly.
"Tyde" I whisper
And run my hands through his once alive hair. I see his eyes glazed over and dull. He was only 14 why. Why couldn't it have been me. I would have died for my little brother. Take a bullet straight through my brain. Jump in front of a train. I would've done anything to make him come back alive. I kiss him on the head and pray for a Miracle. I pray Miracle will help me out here. She's my little angel that has looked out for me since what happened to her.
Only fools fall for you, only fools
Only fools do what do, only fools falls
Only fools fall for you, only fools
Only fools do what I do, only fools fall
Only fools
Only fools
Only fools
Only fools...
RO BE CONTINUED
