Lost

Chapter 1: Why ❔

"It's all your fault " they chanted.

"You killed them" they yelled throwing stones at my already bruised skin. He yelled

"You deserve to die" hey yelled as he aimed the gun to my head. BOOM!!

I woke up panting, sweat dripping from my chin. "It was just a dream" my wolf Leah chanted calming me down.

I turned my head towards my clock to see it said 6:31am. I might as well get ready now I stated mentally. I lazily dragged myself into the shower to do my business. Wrapped in my towel hair dripping wet, I walked to my closet. Seeing as I don't have much clothing, I quickly chose a black long sleeve sweater, faded blue jeans , and my sky blue converses .

     Leaving the janitor... Uh I mean my room, I grabbed my book bag . When I got downstairs I dropped my book bag by the door and ran to the kitchen to start cooking. Looking at the time , I quickly decided to make pancakes, toast, and I made salad for the whining girls that always complained about their weight. An hour later I finished cooking as pack members groggily walked into the kitchen filling their plates with food. Some looked at me with disgust evident in their eyes, while some didn't even acknowledge my presence. I'm not able to leave until Alpha Chandler comes. I just stood there waiting for Alpha Chandler to dismiss me. Then a smell passed me that stunk of alcohol and something rotten. As it was Alpha Chandler that smelled this way.

I automatically stiffened as Alpha Chandler made his way into the kitchen, but of course before getting his food he made his way to me. As he raised his fist I closed my eyes waiting for the impact. I didn't have to wait long, because soon enough I was on the floor holding the part where he punched me on my face. That's definitely going to leave a mark.

"After school I want you to come straight home. Since we'll all be out late tonight, I you want to make sure this house is clean" he yelled walking away but not before kicking me in the stomach and slapping me back down. "You're dismissed you burden" he spat at me. I quickly ran to the bathroom to cover up with concealer. Making sure it was all covered I ran out of the bathroom grabbing my bag by the door and started my long run to school.

Wondering what happened back there?

Well I didn't eat because I'm only allowed to eat when they tell me I can which is twice a month. Since they starve me, I'm to weak to fight back. If you haven't figured it out yet, I'm mute , have been for 10 years. I make no sound and I try my best to not cry either. When I was 7 I vowed to never cry since the incident , I can't give them the satisfaction of hearing me in pain. They only beat and starve me enough to make me weak. Although never enough to kill me, they said that would be to much paper work and it'll mess up their reputation.

So basically I'm stuck inside this hell.

When other packs visit, I am to do what I'm told but stay out of the sight of the other pack. Which meant staying in the basement. Other than being the pack omega I'm also the pack's punching bag. I could be doing everything I was told to do and still get beaten to a bloody pulp for no apparent reason. The longest they've ever left me without a beating is two days. Which I'm thankful for because I'm able to recover a little. Isn't life great.

Maybe one day I'll just drop and die. That would be nice because dying is better than staying here. Even if I'm gone nobody would care ,nobody ever did care. To the people I called my pack , my brothers and sisters , my family , were now my enemies and personal hell chambers.

I've lost hope long time ago and I don't think I'll ever get that back.