Here It Goes

Prologue

She wanted everything to just be perfect but it couldn't be you don't understand its just its not the way
it's supposed to be. Everything supposed to be ok my friends aren't supposed to let me down I'm not supposed to tell me that there's no way that I'm going to survive or not supposed to be this way but yet they are but why? Sometimes I don't know why I am still living because it hurts it just fucking hurts. I knew that they didn't care but there are just those times if they told me they did and then they come and they would stab me in the back leaving me on the floor to die alone.

Tears burning my cheeks as I say the words.

"I'm done I can't do this anymore it's not you it's me know it really is you you don't understand the things that you say hurt me you like a bulldozer destroying everything in its path."

But yet you stay here and you cover me with fire you turn against me in as I feel my darkest moments coming forward I fight a battle, but have no sword. I scream but yet my pillow muffled my sounds not knowing who I am or what I am. Not knowing who I am or what I am. Am I a fighter, if I am I have been fighting too long. Because now, instead of saying those words to her face. I have to text them, to be able to escpae them.

Then Reality hits me, I am not in a fairy tale. I have to get up and go to school tomorrow.