i never told you.

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i never told you, but you made me miserable. i was at my worst when i was with you. but at the same time, i needed you. i really fucking needed you in order to live with myself. i couldnt function without knowing that you approved of me. i couldnt sleep without you telling me you love me at least 5 times. i couldnt go through a day without wondering how i could be better. in reality, you needed to be better. you needed to appreciate me and make it known that you loved me because god damn it i deserved it. i never told you, but i realize now that you gave me the smallest fraction of what i truly deserved. i never told you, but you made those 15 months hell. i never told you, but in the process of falling in love with you, i fell out of touch with myself. i took all the love meant for me and i gave it all to you. i never told you, but i regret giving you my all. i never told you, but im doing better without you.