Vic's pov
Every time I hear the name kellin quinn I remember that he likes me and no it's just a feeling or in a friendly way we have been friends for 3 years and nine months ago he kissed me and I enjoyed it but at the same time it felt wrong cause I'm straight or at least I think I am.....
"Vic hello earth to vic" Mike said
"Yea, sorry I was just thinking,what's up" I said not knowing what the hell was going on or were I was for that matter.
"We have to go you'll think later now let's go" he said with a smile
"Where?" I said with a questioning look on my face he looked back at me and just gave me a smile and kept walking
Knowing my brother he had something really stupid in mind but either way I had to follow him. As I catched up to him I saw him and our fellow band members Tony and Jaime
I was relieved that nothing stupid was going to happen but I spoke to soon..I stared at them and they suddenly all turn around to show me a paper that says we're touring with sleeping with sirens I was so nervous because I remember who's in sleeping with sirens it was Kellin mother fucking Quinn that charming motherfucker and his raven hair and those beautiful blue green eyes stop it vic your not gay as I was thinking I was interested by my brother "are you excited?"
I looked at them with a fake smile on my face and said "yes" Mike then said "of course you are your going to see your crush after what was it nine month" Mike said making Tony and Jaime laugh I shook my head and denied it even though I knew it would be weird since me and kellin kissed and all.
"Oh come on vic we both know that's a lie" Jaime said and I just kept denying it for a good 30 minutes until they finally gave in.
I knew inside I couldn't wait to see that raven haired blue/green eyed boy but at the same time I was worried what if it's awkward now that we kissed and I know how he feels about me the thought alone made me smile like an idiot.
Kellin's pov
That day still lingers in my head the day I decided it was a good idea to kiss vic fucking Fuentes. Yeah I know I fucked up a good friendship that lasted three years and yes I had a crush on him since the day I met him but I didn't wanna make make things awkward. It's to late for that cause nine months ago I decided to finally make a move and kiss him he quickly pulled away and left my tour bus and I haven't seen him since....
After about a good hour of thinking I walked out my room to meet the rest of sleeping with sirens. Aperently they had something inportant to tell me so I shower quickly and put on some black jeans and a t-shirt and my tom's after that I went downstairs and they all had a smile on your face. It made me feel scared of what they're going to do next. But instead gabe just gave me a paper that said where touring with pierce the veil and as I remember the guy I fell for that beautiful Mexican with his beautiful tan skin and his beautiful brown curls and those chocolate brown eyes. As I kept thinking reality finally hit me and I thought to my self vic Fuentes will never love you look at your self your ugly that's why when you kissed kissed him nine months ago he ran out of the bus right after your just disgusting.
I was about to cry when I remembered that my whole band was there looking at me I just look up and put a fake smile on my face and gave them a face of excitement but deep in side I was nurvis what if vic was disgusted by me what if vic does not want to talk to me oh god I screwed up big time.
My thinking was stopped when Justin "are you sized were going to be touring with pierce the veil for at least a year" I was thinking to my self was I really excited but I just put on a fake smile and said "yes it's going to be fun were going to see all our fans and get to see new places" they all nodded before saying let's go hit the bar I stayed back though and once they left I let the tears finally fall.
I ran to my room locked the door and went to my desk and opened one of the drores and took out my blade and pulled down my pants to reviel my thigh and on it were my latest cuts as soon as I began to cut I was telling my self you Werth less ugly Basterd how can any one love you look at your self that's why vic ran from you when you kissed him.
I counted to see how many cuts I just did I cut my self in total 12 times I then got off the floor cleaned my self and the floor up I wrapped my cuts up in a large bandage and walked to my bed and cried my self to sleep.
1 whole year with a person who doesn't feel anything for me and will most likely laugh at me cause of what I did why would I ever think he had a thing for me I'm just a Werth less ugly human being.
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Hers the first chapter and yea hoped you liked it I will update the rest of the chapters tomorrow on my way to therapy so yea by now •~•
