SnK/AoT x reader

Depressed!Eren x reader

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'Stupid Levi, making me clean the stables.. I didn't even slack off that much.." I grumble as I kick the dirt, making my way to the stables.

Levi said I was slacking so now I have to clean the stables. Stupid chibi, all I did was take a break!

I open the door to the stable and enter. I hear sniffles and I realise someone is crying.

I laugh to myself because someone is being a pussy, I should see who it is so I can blackmail them into cleaning for me.

I follow the sounds and they are coming from... above me?

Whoever is crying is in the loft, smirking, I stealthily climb the ladder, not making a sound.

I peak over the hay and I see the last person I would ever suspect of being the one crying.

I saw Eren.

I hear him talking to himself, making him cry harder.

He's saying things like 'I'm a monster' 'I should die' 'nobody would miss me' 'I'm just a freak of nature'

All of a sudden his muffled sobs stop and you hear him say "I know what I can do... I'll kill myself.. I'm going to jump off the wall!"

I gasp silently and I hear him get up.

I walk over, not making a sound. I wrap my arms around his torso and hold him close.

He jumps at the sudden contact, believing he was alone.

"H-how much did you hear?" He asks, voice hoarse from crying.

"Don't kill yourself Eren."

"You can't tell me what I can and can't do with my life." He growls out, becoming visibly angry.

"Please don-"

"No." He cut me off "I'm going to do what I want and you can't stop me y/n."

He shoves me off and jumps down. I realise I can't go after him since I have to clean, and let me just say I've never cleaned so fast in my life.

~time skippu to after cleaning~

I ran to the guys dorms and accidentally ran into Armin.

"Whoa y/n!" He says helping me up "what's got you running so fast? And in the guys dorms at that?"

When I get up I quickly spit out "Eren's room! Which one!?"

"Last one to the lef-" I cut him off by running down the hall and throwing open his door so hard it bounces back.

I rush in and find a letter, all alone and left one his pillow.

I pick it up and scan it, tears filling my eyes.

'Who ever finds this, I'm dead. I killed myself, the world is better off without me. No one can love a monster. Goodbye

-Eren Jäger'

I turn on my heel and dash out of the room and down the hall, tears streaming down my face.

"Y/n? What's wrong?" Armin asks as I run past him I yell over my shoulder "Eren!"

I run and run and run, for what seems like forever until I reach the wall, using my 3dmg I scale the wall faster than ever.

'Stupid!' I think 'you could've got here faster using your gear!' I mentally scold myself.

I reach the top and whip around, hoping to catch a glimpse of the brunette that holds my heart without knowing it.

"EREN!" I scream as I see the silhouette of the titan shifter.