A New Beginning. (Lesbian Story)

Chapter 18 - I will never forget

Chapter 18 - I will never forget

Piper's POV

"We gather here today to celebrate the life of Alexandra Vause. She was described as the life of a party, an amazing friend who was always there for you by her two dearest friends - Nicky Nichols and Chelsea Houston. Her Mother, Diane Vause, described her as a very young, wise, independent woman who would do anything for you and always knew how to cheer you up. An all round beautiful person. Then last but not least, her girlfriend - Piper Chapman - described Alex as the love of her life who she promised she would never forget." The Priest said but nothing was really sinking in.

I couldn't even cry. I was numb. I died with her. Diane was sat to my right, trying her hardest to hold it together but failed as soon as I held her hand in comfort and immediately, tear after tear rolled down her face. Nicky Chelsea were sat to my left holding each other as they both silently cried. "Would anyone like to say a few words" The priest asked. I looked at the only other three people in the room who were staring back at me. "Can you... Please-" I heard Diane whisper to me. I nodded and stood up. As I walked past Alex's coffin where her lifeless body laid I stopped and just stared at her picture. 'This is all my fault' I thought to myself. I pulled my eyes from the coffin and turned around to face the three heart broken people in front of me. I looked down to my wrist at the bracelet Alex gave to me on our first date and one tear rolled down my cheek. I took a deep breath and attempted to compose myself.

"Alex... She was my everything. She still is my everything. On my worst days she could cheer me up with one look and I'd immediately forget what was wrong. The first time I saw Alex I was sat in an English class wondering how boring this lesson was going to be and then she burst through the door out of my breath but to me she still looked beautiful. She always did. She could wear a bin bag but would still look like an angel. She was such a kind, caring person who helped me through so much... I could never thank her for it... She was one of a kind. She stole my heart. She was all I paid attention to, everything else was just background when I was with her. The way her eyes would light up when she gave me that beautiful smile, the way she'd raise one eyebrow and smirk in that knowing way... Everything about Alex I loved and I never got to tell her... I miss her everyday and I always will. She was my Alex Vause and I was her Piper Chapman" As my voice started cracking I turned to the coffin. I hesitantly rested my hand on the coffin and whispered, "I love you Alex... I promise I will NEVER forget you babe..." With that I just broke down and closed my eyes.

As I had my eyes squeezed shut with the feeling of tears streaming down my face I felt someone shaking my shoulder and a steady beeping. I opened my eyes immediately to see Diane in front of me. I looked to my right and there she was. It was a nightmare... She's alive. I looked back to Diane who's bright blue eyes were slightly red and puffy and didn't have that usual sparkle. "You okay kid?" She asked in her soft voice. I nodded a simple 'yes', not trusting my voice. She uses her thumb to wipe the few stray tears on my face which Alex has done so many times before. I give her a small smile in return for her gesture. "I'm gonna get something to eat, do you want anything?" She asked, "Just a bottle of water please." She nods with a small smile and I turn to look out the window as I think back onto that night.

Alex closed her eyes as the paramedics clambered out of the ambulance I screamed her name over and over as I got dragged away from her lifeless body and tears ran down my cheeks. The next thing I know they are trying to shock her heart back into rhythm and I felt my body go limp. I felt numb. After what fell like years of waiting I heard one of them shout, "We got her back" causing a wave of relief to wash through my body. "Patient has a bullet wound in line with main organs, 5 suspected cracked rips, one broken leg and a broken arm with a severe head injury. She is in a critical condition. We need to get her to the hospital now." I hear one of the paramedic shout. Then everything was a blur. The next thing I know I'm in the back of an ambulance, staring at Alex laid out on a bed  looking lifeless whilst someone is looking at - what I know now is - broken hand. Within minutes we were at the hospital and I watched the only person I ever loved get wheeled away from me, not knowing if that's the last time I will ever see her.

That was a weeks ago. The bullet just scraped past her lungs and she did indeed have 5 broke ribs, a broken arm and leg. Although the head injury was worse than they thought and she had to be put into an induced coma. Not once have I left her bedside. I've made Diane go home each night and she's bought me clothes and refreshments everyday, not that I've ate. Nicky and Chelsea come in every day and try to cheer me up. "It's all my fault... I'm so sorry Alex... I-" "No it wasn't kid." With that my head snapped up towards the door to see Diane standing there. She came and sat down in the chair next to the one I was seated in.

She took one of her hand in my own, "It wasn't your fault Piper and WHEN our Alex wakes up she'll tell you herself. Did you make Alex jump in front of you? No. Did you know she was going to do so? No. It was NOT your fault Piper, I promise you. The only person we have to blame for all this is Larry and believe me, he'll get what's coming to him. I believe in a thing called Karma and I know it's going to bit him in the ass. I can feel it." Diane said in her motherly, comforting tone and I actually believed her... This was Larry's fault and he WILL pay.

As Diane tells me more embarrassing stories from Alex's childhood I smooth her thumb to the sound of her heartbeat that's being portrayed by the constant, steady beating from the machine beside me. That was until the beep stopped and became constant. I jumped up and in no more than two seconds of me noticing the consistent beep doctors were swarming around Alex. "No... No this cant be happening..." I whisper to myself. I feel two arms wrap around me that feel familiar but nothing registering. "NO ALEX! ALEX NO YOU PROMISED TO STAY YOU CANT- YOU CANT LEAVE ME!" I scream as I'm pulled out the door by I now know was both Diane and Nicky.

"Alex..." Is all I whisper over and over as I'm pulled from the room. I can hear the doctors rushing around, trying to shock her heart back into rhythm again as I sit, hugging my knees to my chest against the wall separating me and Alex as I pray to a God I don't believe in. "Please baby... Please..." I simply whisper. That's when I hear it. Those words. "Time of death... 17:27..." Immediately I release a blood curdling scream and run to her bedside... My Alex... She can't... "NO NO NO! YOU HAVE TO COME BACK TO ME! COME ON BABY!" I scream as I lace my fingers with her and plant kisses on her temple and I can see Diane, Nicky and Chelsea out the corner of my eye. All with tears down their cheeks. "Come back to me... You can't be d-dead... You can't!" I whisper my voice full of hope. She can't be dead.

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A/N Just gonna leave this here...

Dedicated to the two amazing assholes who wanted an update.