Niall has been on tour for two weeks now and the hate has been getting to you ,usually it doesn't since niall was there to comfort you but he was gone ,you've always struggled with self harm but you stopped when you met niall .it was just to much all of the fans calling you names and telling you to die you run up to yours and Niall's room got a old box out of the closet that had your blades and pills stuff like that you grabbed the blade ran to the bathroom while crying you shut the door behind you ,you sit on the floor and grab your iPod and blasted the music up singing along (A/N: the song is CUT by:plumb)
...I'm not a stranger no I am yours with crippled anger and tears that still drip sore a fragile frame aged with misery
And when our eyes meet i know you'll see I do not wanna be afraid I do not wanna die inside just to breathe in I'm tired of feeling so numb relief exist I find it when I am cut...
You sing as you make the first cut across your wrist watching the little beads of blood trickle down your arm as more tears spill like a waterfall
...I may seem crazy painfully shy and these scars wouldn't be so hidden if you would just look me in the eye I feel alone here and cold here though I don't wanna die if the only anesthetic make me feel anything ,kills inside I do not wanna be afraid I do not wanna die inside just to breathe in I'm tired of feeling so numb relief exists I find it when I am cut ,pain, I am not alone I am a not alone ...
You sing making two more cuts as blood races down your arm ,you have the music up so loud you don't even hear foot steps coming toward the bathroom "(Y/N) WHAT ARE YOU DOING?" Niall yells knocking the blade out of your hand hugging you tightly "I-I'm s-so sorry Ni-Niall the-the hate " is all you can choke out before he shuts you up by kissing you that's when you notice tears coming down his face too "shhh (y/n) don't listen to them how many times do I have to tell you that " he says wiping away your tears
"Niall I'm s-sorry I ,I love you" you stutter "why ,why would you do this to yourself the hate isn't worth it i love you too much for you to do this to yourself" he says pecking your lips " I'm sorry" you say more calmed "it's okay just never do this ever again" he says "never again" you say smirking at how much he cares about you "I love you" he says "I love you too" you say kissing him again
(A/N: okay this one was a really hard topic 'cause I have friends that cut and I did it a couple times any way hope you liked it and if you cut don't you don't deserve it you are beautiful and you are a one and only .I.LOVE.YOU.
~ally horan
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