Tied Together (Seventeen Fanfic)

13: This is so confusing

Mirrin's POV

"Mirrin?" Seungcheol whispers, even though no one else is around.

He's being so different right now, so...serious.

"Can I try something?"

I nods my head uncertainly, and stare at him.

Suddenly, he swoops down and presses his lips to mine.

I try to gasp but his lips are pressed firmly against mine as he raises his hand to tuck my hair behind my ears. It wasn't sweet, and neither did it feel gross.

It was just..warm. The warmth spread from my lips to my face, to my chest, and I felt my eyelids flutter as my heart pounded against my chest.

I wanted to yell at him, hit him, push him away, but somehow I couldn't bring myself to do it. This feeling...it wasn't fireworks or explosions like everyone imagines them a kiss to be; it was a warm, bubbling feeling that bloomed in my chest. My body tingled and I stood there not being able to do anything.

It was such an unfamiliar feeling.

And I..

I-

But..

No no no no no.

I...I can't do this. I still..Have to look for that boy.

I have a first love already..and...I

...

UGH!

This is so confusing!!!

I feel like my heart is squeezing up, and its just too confusing for me to take. I can't..I don't want to let all these emotions flood me.

Now I really don't know if he's just playing with my emotions. Just when I let my guard down and talk to him...about things I've never really told anyone. For all I knew he was playing with me.

And if he is, then it's wrong for me to feel so much. Why am I..feeling so much?

Way too soon, Seungcheol pulled his head away slightly, his mouth still inches away from mine. He just stood there looking up at me through his long lashes with his head tilted, smiling like a child who just stole some cookies from a jar.

Suddenly I felt my cheeks flare up, and my hands flew up to touch my lips as I tried to take a step backwards but bumped into a hedge. I don't know why, but I feel rising tears that were threatening to flood over my eyes for no reason.

I don't even get why I'm crying...I don't really have a reason to.

But I can't take this, these feelings are overloading my brain way too much that it's throbbing now,

And so I run. I know he called after me, but I just kept running, away from that maze, away from the party, away from him, away from all those feelings.

I just kept running, trying to drown out my pounding heart by pounding my heels into the grass after ripping my shoes off.

Your heart's just beating fast because you're running, Mirrin.

Yes. It's because you're running.

I couldn't stop running, but found myself coming to an abrupt halt when I crashed into someone and fall back onto the grass.