Everthing was fine yesterday. And now it feels like we're barely holding on again. I just dont get it.
I cant say i want you back in my life. I just hope you are happy now. And i hope your okay.
You're gone and i'm left behind by myself.
Its not that it is so horrible to be alone. I like to be alone i just dont like to be lonely. And there is a huge difference between those two words.
But even if i like to be alone. I dont want to be without some people. And one of those people i dont want to be without was him. And no, this is not how i lost the love of my life or something, its not about love. I dont believe in love. Simple as that. But he was someone i could talk to anytime. And since he was a few years older (only 5 but still..) he was smart. At least i thought he was. He had some great advise about life. He wasnt really smart.. but hey, at least he tried.
If you read this, you will be very confused i think.. but im just trying to find out if this helps me in any way.
My therapist told me to do this shit okay, but im not writing about the real shit in life. So hey i kinda listened to her... i think. At least im writing about my life
IM SO CONFUSEEEEEED.
YOU ARE READING
Problems. (just rants)
RandomAll the things that are wrong in my life. Nothing to dramatic don't worry. Just needed to get these things off of my chest. (As some of you know, i'm Dutch, so i try but cant really write in English. Sorry.)
