Remember Me (Ziam AU)✔️

Chapter 9

Zayn's pov:

"What? Please tell me you're lying?" I beg the doctor but I know he's not when he sighs and purses his lips.

"I'm sorry, I wish I were lying but I'm not."

"Will he get his memory back? Can I see him?" Dr. Kelly runs a hand through his dirty blond hair and shakes his head slowly.

"I think we should call his parents first and explain everything to them and then we can talk about what's best for Liam. Okay?" He asks and I want to protest. I don't really wanna see Karen right now but he is the doctor and he knows what's best. So I nod and he dismisses himself while I go back to the position I was in before: sitting  on the floor bawling my eyes out.

I know I'm the reason Liam's here but did I really deserve him not knowing who I am? Liam was the only one that understood me and loved me. Now I'm nothing to him. We're supposed to be getting married for crying out loud! Why did this have to happen? Why did Louis kiss me? Why wasn't I the perfect man he deserves?

My phone rings in my pocket and in broken from my thoughts. I take my phone out and see its Harry that's calling. I don't want to answer but I haven't talked to him in a while because I'm a shitty person. I cough to clear my throat, he doesn't need to know I've been crying.

"Hello?"

"Zayn, mate how've you been? How's Liam?" He asks. I clear my throat once again.

"I'm good," I lie. "Liam woke up," I tell him.

"Wow really? That's great!" He says excitedly, the excitement I wish I had.

"Yeah," I say.

"How come you don't sound excited?" He asks and I want to laugh and smile and tell him that I am but I can't. When I open my mouth to lie and tell him I am happy, I break down. My tears start to fall and I can't manage to get anything out.

"Zayn? What's wrong!? Talk to me!" He shouts worried from the other line. I pause my sobs and tell him.

"He- he doesn't know who I am."

"What?"

"He doesn't fûcking know who I am!" I don't mean to snap but I can't help it. I'm angry, tired, and hurt. Harry falls quiet , probably thinking about what to say or processing what I've just told him.

"Zayn, I'm sorry," he says finally and I cry but at the same time scream. Not at him but just in general. Why did he have to say he was sorry? Why couldn't he tell me something else? I didn't need his pity or anyone else's. I just needed Liam.

"This is my fault. This is my fault," I chant in a low whisper. Harry shushes me and tells me it's not and that it's going to be okay and I sort of hate him. Is it really going to be okay? Will Liam get better? I really hope he does but I wish I had the same enthusiasm as him.

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We continue to talk, well Harry does and I try to control my emotions. Thankfully Harry changes the subject and he talks about something. Probably Niall or the guy at his work that keeps hitting on him, I'm not really paying attention.

Right when Harry stops talking the doctor appears with Karen right on his heels and Geoff close but but also at a safe distance. Karen is crying and I'm not surprised. It's seems as though crying is the norm for her nowadays. And Dr. Kelly is looking like he's had enough of her already.

They reach me and Dr. Kelly gives me a short smile and I stand up quickly and dust myself off. Karen sees me and she looks like she's ready to curse me out but thankfully Dr. Kelly interrupts her.