Fosters (Jesus Foster) love Storie

How do i deal with love

It's been a week since I saw jesus and I know I'm in love with him and I can't tell him that or I will look like a idiot in front of his ex girlfriend
That night
It was the anniversary of my moms death so my dad was decided he would drink. When I walked through the door of the house I just though about Jesus but that was stopped by a beer bottle being thrown at me and missed and hit the wall I looked at him and he looked mad "where have you been"he said I just stood there and looked at him and said nothing "fine you don't want to answer me you can go to your room without dinner"he said when I was about to leave he grabbed me by my hair and yanked me back and slapped me
Then he just threw me to the stairs and said "you go to your room you whore"he said I just ran into my room and sat there looking outside and I just thought about Jesus and I just though about how do I deal with love