It's crazy how your life could be so simple.
I was the good girl with A honor roll since kindergarten. Someone who no one noticed or messed with. At my old school, the guys knew not to mess with me. They knew I wouldn't give them what they wanted.
And in one instant, one kiss, my entire life I knew had totally shifted.
I'd never even had a sip of alcohol until last monday at the club. There are so many things I've never done, and so many things I've done in the past three weeks I've been here that I would have never even considered doing back home. Life used to be simple....
until Jack.
Jack always seemed to creep his way into my thoughts daily. He's probably with Madison this very moment.
After that night at In N Out I thought he would be mine, and he was. Until Madison showed up only a week later to take him away from me. I want to off the bitch oh my god.
But, I wasn't gonna be so easily forgiving towards Jack. He's been a major asshole. What kind of boyfriend makes out with their ex? Especially in front of their girlfriend.
This whole thing is really just a big blur. And
I'm not exactly sure of all the details of what has been going on these past couple weeks.
My trail of thought was interrupted by my phone buzzing yet again with a text from Jack-ass. You'd think after three days of me not replying he'd get the hint.
Jack: Baby, please. She doesn't mean anything to me.
Jack: I don't know what Sam has told you about that us.. but it didn't mean anything I swear! I wish it would have been you! I love you, Natalie! And Madison was just a mistake!
Natalie: What the hell are you talking about? What was Sam supposed to tell me?!
Jack: .......
holy fucking shit.
you've got to be kidding me.
did he really sleep with her?
I locked my phone and walked towards Sam's dorm after throwing on makeup and sweats.
"Hey babe, I've been meaning to talk to you, actually."
"Damn it, Sam." I scoffed.
I walked inside and made myself at home by kicking my uggs off and plopping down on his bed. He laid beside me and looked at me apologetically.
"Samuel, I already know. He slept with her, didn't he?"
Sam's eyes widened in confusion and shocked at my sudden outburst.
"He did?!" Samuel seemed so confused, making me even more confused as to what Jack could have been referring to.
"Wait hold up, you've got this all wrong, babe. Jack didn't sleep with her recently that I know of! Oh my god. He just didn't want me to tell you about their history because he was scared you'd get insecure and jealous. And, frankly, he doesn't want to lose you."
This whole thing is just confusing as hell. I swayed back and forth contemplating what the fuck was all going on right now and what I should say to that.
"Alright, well now you have to tell me.."
I murmured.
Sam sighed and looked at me as though I was a sad old man on the side of the road. He could barely make eye contact and I could tell he didn't feel comfortable spilling the beans to me.
"Madison met Jack here freshman year. They lost their virginities to eachother and have been fuck buddies ever since. Madison has feelings for Jack, always has, but Jack always told me all she was was a good fuck. He loves you, he just has a past with her and is a horny asshole sometimes that doesn't think before he does things."
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After talking with Sam and him answering all of my questions to the best of his ability I just went home and slept, ignoring all of Jack's texts, phonecalls, and snapchats.
I finally decided to get up after sleeping the day away around 8:00 pm.
I had 13 messages, 2 snapchats, and 11 missed calls from Jack throughout today. And yet again, my phone started buzzing with another call.
Completely annoyed, I decided that I would just answer him to end my misery.
"Hello?"
"OH MY GOD, NATALIE! (clears throat) You answered!"
"Yup."
"Can we- can we talk?"
"Nope."
"Come on, baby. Please talk to me. I screwed up- big time. One conversation is all I'm asking for!" His voice cracked as though he was about to cry, and me being the weak ass little wimp I am, decided to give in.
"Fine..."
"I'll be over in like 2 seconds! Thank you so fucking much, babe!"
I hung up and ran my fingers through my hair, angry at how weak I am when it comes to Jack.
Soon enough, I heard a faint knock and a guilty Gilinsky walked in like a beggar.
Dammit, I wanted to grab him and kiss him and tell him I forgive him. But this time, I can't so easily forgive him.
"Hey, babygirl."
