I woke up thinking the day had already passed but it was just 6 pm. I really didn't want to get out of my room so I just laid in bed for another while.
I just thought of how miserable my life was. I hated myself so much. I've always felt as the disappointment of the family.
I really didn't want to think off that right now. So I just grabbed my phone to see if I had any texts. And I did, from Brooke, 3 missed calls and a ton of texts. At least I had her to care about me.
So I really didn't want to read all the texts so I just texted her to come over.
So I just waited and started to think about her about what if she felt the same way I feel towards her. But i know that won't ever happen.
Then I here a knock and remember that I'm half naked so I just get a tank top and a pair of shorts.
As soon as I open the door Brooke comes running in and I was expecting her to hug me and saying your ok. But it didn't go that way. I just feel a sting on my cheek and her screaming " wtf is wrong with you I told you not to do it and you get suspended from school. Let's see who tries to stop you next time cuz it never fucking works!!!"
"It's not my problem I never ask you to do it. And it always happens it's not the first time I get suspended."
" true I'm sorry for slapping you..."
"It's ok I kinda did deserve it"
"You did but it makes me feel bad"
Brooke walked into my room and sat on the bed. I heard my brother rushing to my room, so I quickly shut the door.
"I know you're not over him," Brooke stated.
"What do you know about it" I still don't want to talk about it, but I know Brooke too well. I know she worries about me, and wants to help out.
"You could have ignored her, just kept walking your way, like she didn't exists"
"Can we just not talk about it, I am over him, I just wanted to punch someone, and she gave me the chance." I responded.
"Okay fine, I'll change the subject, so what did you do for the rest of the day?"
"Slept, I was tired and..." I noticed that Brooke was wearing, she had her black short shorts and a white tank top, and my red and black flannel. She looked beautiful, I have no idea how she does it, manage to look beautiful everyday.
"And, what, why do you look like you just saw a dick and now want to suck it?"
I have to say something fast before she starts asking me a bunch of questions, "Is that my flannel?"
"Yea, why?"
"How many times have I told you not to wear my clothes? And if you do you have to ask me" I actually don't care if she wears my clothes.
"I had it on this morning, you were to distracted to notice."
"Okay, just give it back"
"Nope, it's comfy, and it smells like you, and I had to be at school without you, and this helped me get through today. So, no, I am not giving it back, you owe me. I'll give it back when you come back to school, which is in a week."
Things like that are what makes me question if the feelings are mutual. "Okay, whatever,"
"I brought you food, I knew you would be sleeping" Brooke interrupted me like she always does, but it's always for a good thing, "and its your favorite, PIZZA!!!"
Damn, I love her so much.
I didn't even notice she had pizza in her backpack, she took her time to put it in trays so it would be a surprise.
We ate pizza and watched random things on YouTube.
It was around 9 p.m. and I noticed her falling asleep, must've been a rough day for her today.
I told her she could spend the night, so she wouldn't have to drive back home.
I didn't have to tell her twice. She laid on my bed, I didn't have to worry about school, so I decided to play Kingdom Hearts, to spend some time, since I slept most of the day. Who thought about suspension being a punishment. I turned off the light so Brooke could sleep better.
I was stuck on a level, and looked at the time it was past midnight, So, I turned of the TV and went to bed. I grabbed the blanket and covered Brooke.
She's amazing, I don't know what I would do without her.
I wasn't sleepy, I was just looking at her sleep. I was daydreaming when I felt her getting closer to me, and she hugged me. I didn't know what to do. She was sleeping, I didn't want to wake her up. I just stayed there.
She was cuddling me. How am I suppose to get over this. I could feel her breath on my neck. I kept going with it, I cuddled her back.
I was getting sleepy, and I heard Brooke say, "I love you Alexandria."
