People have different definitions of sickness. All include being done. Done with everything. Once everything is done with there is no more sickness.
Everyone is sick in their own way. Some kill, other listen to everyone and other are me. We sit and take everyone's crap when we know we don't have to. Sometimes you don't wanna lose some of you favorite people. People are attracted to one another, but why. It's a sickness, we all have to find someone. But with me I have no one. I sit around waiting for them to come back to me when it will never happen.
Waiting is the worst part. We as humans must have a relationship to keep ourselves together. Some people are just always looking for someone new, others just look for the one that will take care of them. Me I just want someone to look at me and think something other than why does she exist. I want them to think I'm beautiful and smart and they can't wait to know me.
To bad I'm me and being me i am ugly. On the inside I wanna be tough like my friends saying I'm dumb doesn't hurt me but when I go home and cry from hearing it so much I'm not so strong anymore.
If my life were on a piece of paper, I would wanna erase myself from it. I am the one that gets left out of the happily ever after because I am no princess. I am the girl in the back that just wants to be accepted. Yes, I have my issues but so does the girl that gets everything
I guess I'm just not sick enough for everyone to see me. My parents don't see me anymore, they think it's ok. My friends don't see me anymore, they are too busy. I am too busy for me and my own sickness. It will swallow me whole one day. That day is today.
