Cold Hearted //TVD//

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I throw my white bedding in the dryer, pressing the button to start the load. I start to shiver a little, my cold, wet clothes sticking to my body. I look at my phone, seeing that it's 2:19 in the morning. Great. That means I get less than three hours more of sleep. Oh well, it's not like I am going back to sleep after that nightmare anyways.

"Rora, what are you doing?" I hear Jenna's scratchy, tired voice behind me.

I turn around to face her. She is squinting, the light of the room forcing her to adjust. 

"I woke up and got some water, and tripped in the dark and splashed it all over my bead." I lie.

Jenna nods, her eyes not squinting so much anymore.

"Why don't we come and have a talk." she says, and I give her a confused look.

"Jenna, it's two in the morning." I say, walking out of the laundry room.

"I know, but I'm wide awake now, and it would seem you are too." she says, seeming a little concerned.

We walk in to the living room and I sit on my comfy, soft brown couch, waiting for Jenna. She walks over and sits down a little ways from me, turning so she can face me fully, crossing her longs legs on the sofa.

"So what's been up with you lately?" she asks sincerely. 

Oh just having nightmares about drowning and waking up in a soaking wet bed.

"Nothing, why?" I ask, confused. What is she getting at?

She sighs, looking me in the eye, her blondish hair a mess. "You've just been kind of snappy lately, and I almost never see you at the house anymore. Is there a reason for that?" she asks calmly.

Right now I wish I could tell her. I wish I could tell her about vampires and creepy dreams and all about the supernatural world, but I can't. I've never felt more guilty for that in my life. She believes that my problems are just normal teenage girl problems, but I'm not just a girl with a twin and dead parents.

I'm a girl who knows two vampires, who's twin sister is dating one of them, who's friend is trying to get the love of his life back, and she's also a vampire who looks just like Elena. I'm a girl who's eyes glowed for some reason, and had a weird ass dream, and wakes up at 5:00 on the dot each morning with out an alarm, who knows a witch, and is about to deal with a bunch of new vampires. 

I'm not the girl I was a month ago, but Jenna can't know that, and it hurts.

"I'm just not the same girl I was, I guess." I reply simply, and she gets a sad look in her eyes.

Jenna grabs my hand, squeezing it, before hugging me, and I feel tears brim in my eyes. I'm not use to people doing little things like this for me. I put up a prickly front so nobody gets close to me, but it's nice every once in a while to let it go for a minute. I hug her back, letting a tear fall before wiping it away quickly.

"I'm always here for you, Rora, you know that, right?" Jenna says, wanting to be closer to me.

"I know, Jenna, thank you for that. Sometimes it's just a little hard." I say, hugging her tighter.

"Yeah, it is, Rora, but it'll get better, I promise. I just miss the days like this when you would tell me stuff." she tells me, patting my back.

I pull away, looking into Jenna's eyes and smiling, and she returns it gladly. We talk for a little while about little things that don't mean much, but it was nice. It was nice to have someone have small talk with me, and be there for me. It was nice to be close to my aunt again, like I used to before mom and dad died. I closed up after that, and haven't opened up since then, it's hard to, and easier to just keep things to myself. That way nobody can let me down. Jenna won't let me down, though, and I know that.