"Your a failure!" Thats all my mom thinks of me . My dad died in a car accident . Things aren't the same with out him . He was my rock . Now its just me and my mom . Honestly my mom hates me . Well .. Atleast she acts like it . She blames everything on me .
I've always had a miserable life ever since my father died . Mother didn't care about me and she made that clear every moment she could. I just wish things were better for me. I'm just some mistake that happened 15 years ago from my parents not being more careful.
**flashback**
Its my moms birthday today. And my dad told me he has a surprise for her . He wouldnt tell me what it was . He said I'm too young to keep secrets . I think at age 7 you should be able to trust me . Our day started out as a sunny day , but soon quickly turned into a thunderstorm . The clouds were black .. We couldn't see anything .
"Dad?"
"Yes,Claire"
"We're are we going?"
"Its a surprise"
"Are we there yet,daddy?!"
"Almost sweetie."
The rain wasn't getting any better . It was actually getting worse . I couldn't see anything . Im sure my daddy couldn't see any more than I could .
"Justin , maybe we should pull over till the rain clears."
"No, we're almost there."
I'm so tired .. But I can't go to sleep . Not on mommy's surprise . I'm so tired .
"Justin , WATCH OUT!!"
Daddy swerved trying to avoid hitting the deer . The car is flipping over . Daddy is bleeding . And mommy is sleeping . Maybe I fell asleep . Maybe if I just close my eyes it will all be over .
It's just a dream Claire .. 1....2....3.....4....
The car stopped turning over on its side . Blue and red lights are coming towards us . I can't help but cry . Mommy won't wake up . And daddy has a glass piece in his head .
"Help!!"
"Calm down . We're trying ."
"Daddy!!"
"Hey,what's your name?"
"Claire.."
I was crying a river . The fire trucks weren't moving fast enough . Daddy needs help ! My sleep was getting the best of me . The fire man grabbed me .. And thats all I remembered . Before waking up in this hospital bed .
I'm in this hospital by myself . Where are my parents !! And why is the nurse staring at me !?
"She's awake !!" One of the nurses called . The name on her name tag said "Shirley" . Another nurse followed behind her words .
"Where are my parents?!" I screamed .
"Give her another dose.." She said to nurse Shirley .
"Is my dad ok?! What about..." The doctor interrupted me .
"Calm down .. Your mother's fine ."
"What about my dad..." I was mumbling . I think that "dose" did something to me .
I fell asleep again . Into a deep sleep . I kept having flashes of the crash , from last night . When I woke up , my mommy was sitting at the end of my bed watching me .
"Mommy !"
"Claire!" She said surprised . It looked like she had been crying . She hugged me so tight. I don't know why mommy is squeezing me so tight. I'm fine. I looked around for daddy. But i didn't see him. He was probably getting a band-aid for his boo-boo. Mommy always gives me band-aids for my boo's. And daddy always kisses them for me. I have alot of boo-boo's and i need daddy special kisses.
"Mommy?"
"Yes , honey"
"Where's daddy?"
"Daddy-..." She began to cry. "Daddy had to go to a special place."
"Can i go see him. My boo-boo needs to be kissed."
"Honey,i'll kiss them."
"No! i want daddy." I began to throw a tantrum.
"Claire.. baby calm down."
"Where is daddy!?"
"Daddy went on a trip....."
"Can i go with him, mommy?"
"Yes dear. One day"
**flaskback ends**
Zion Anderson.
Nothing to special about me. Just a girl that nobody truly understands. They think just because I'm smiling I'm happy. I smile because i just don't have the energy to explain to every curious person who asks whats wrong. When most people see you down, its not because they care. It's because they're curious. Nobody is really for you in this cold world. I learned that at a very young age.
