Love At First Sight??

OMG

When I got home, I helped mum pack away the groceries and went to my room to call Jessica and tell her about the guy that I saw in the shop. "Yea, what up?" she answers. I roll my eyes at her typical manner and then start talking. "Hey guess what?" I am so excited I don't even let her guess. "I saw this ABSOLUTELY GORGEOUS guy at the supermarket." "Really? OMG what did he look like??" "Gorgeous all over. So incredible I can't explain. You'll have to wait till you see him." Then something hit me. I might never see him again. I mean, one off chance at seeing him the first time, but a second? Do not get me started! I swear. I am in love. Then Jess interrupted my thoughts. "Hey, have ya asked ya mum whether ya can come to ma partay?" She is soooo typical, speaking like that. She isn't a bogan or anything, she just talks like that coz she can. "I asked, and she said that I need to keep clean at school. And out." I say that last but darkly, because my 'arch-enemy' and I had had a bit of a fight last year. It was caused by her! So it wasn't my fault!! Anyway Jess was talking. "..nd that will help with lots. Hey, can you come 'roun early, like before tha party and help get everything up? BTW we need to get a hold of some beers, cider and drugs. Could you get tha drinks??" "Um, yeah sure." I was going to say more but she said thanks and hung up. Alcohol? Drugs? I am going to have to come up with a VERY resonable excuse to be able to stay at Jess's after the party becuase I will stink!! "Mum, I need to go down the street!" I yelled out. "Not until we talk!!" She yelled back. Argh!! "Ok then!" I shouted and stayed in my room. I was stubborn, I knew that, but she was the one I got it from. Infuriating! I needed to get out of there, and quickly. I looked out the window, and that was when I saw it. Him. His face was staring in. It gave me shivers, so rubbed the fog off and him at the same time. He was soo gorgeous! I was in full-on love! I only saw him like, 30 minutes ago and I am CRAZY over him!! I am lovin life! Well, love-hate anyway. I ask my mum if I can please go to the store and she just says "Not. Until. We TALK!" ARGH! So infuriating! Down stairs I hear my mother sigh. "You won't get to go to the party" she says, like this isn't the most important party of my life!! "Fine" I say under my breath. OMG I hate it when parents do that. They hate it when you use blackmail against other people, say it is a bad habit, (I used blackmail against my teacher, coz I saw her kissing a student and she was gonna give me suspension-I got it anyway) but then they use it on their kids!! Argh! Why does she have to talk to me anyway? I guess I am about to find out. "Now, honey" "Just spit it out mum. I am already late." "Don't use that tone with me missy!" she snaps at me. Whoa. My mum does not snap, even if you scream at her. " Mum, are you ok?" I ask, just a bit worried about her. "well, yes but I am worried." "What about?" I ask, hoping to god she isn't worried about me. "You" she looks in my eyes. I have to look away. I feel this sort of anger in my chest, plus an ache that is really killing me. "Why?" I say, trying to hold my anger and worry and everthing else in. "Well, as you should know, for the last 6 months, since your fathers and my divorce....." I cut her off. "I don't want to talk about... him" I say, my voice showing sounds of an outburst. "We have to!" she tells me. "We haven't talked about him at all! We need to, because the way you have been behaving at school and outside isn't very appropriate. I don't care what you wear," I look at my short shorts, tight tank and sandals. I have started wearing different clothes and platinum blonde hair dip dyed pink. I used to be light blonde hair, normal jumpers, jeans, T-shirts. I have completely changed. "I don't care where you go; most of the time, and just don't care! But your behaviour missy is just not the old you. Three suspensions in one term. You have almost reached expulsion! Assignments WAY over due, and exam results down the drain! What is going on, is what I want to know. Sit, and talk." Wow. I haven't seen mum this angry since my "friend" accused me of messing up the classroom in preschool. "Erm, ok" I sat. She stared; more like glared. I started to talk. "Mum, I have been lost since you guys divorced." Then it all came out. How I had been feeling, my emotions, why I have become what I am -I'm not bad, just different. "I don't know what is going on but I know one thing. Doing bad things make me feel normal. Happy" When I finished, I looked at the floor. She probably thought all I was saying was COMPLETELY ridiculous. "Oh honey" was all she said and she just hugged me. hugged and hugged. We sat like this for ages and she said. "Do you still want to go out?" "No mum, can we please have a night in?" I felt like we had become closer." Sure hon" So mum ordered pizza and chips with gravy, and we stayed in and watched movies until three in the morning. I woke up at twelve, slipped on a tight blue tank with a pink bra underneath. I put really small skinny jeans on, straightened my hair and put my fav dangly star earrings on. I put a thick layer of eye-liner, blusher, hot pink eye shadow and bright pink lipstick on and went down for breakfast. Mum was still asleep, so I wrote a note, left it next to the coffee maker, got my skateboard from my room and slipped out the door.