"Come on, we have to celebrate it" they say.
Today is my birthday. 6940 days. I'm only nineteen years old.
Today a guy chases a young girl in her house when her parents work, and kills her after raping her. Today, ten people I don't know are dead trying to help in an Afghan hospital.
Today, the leaders of this world want it to be full of destructuring waves, and are about to reach this goal. Today, plenty of people don't know they are being destroyed by their favourite tools: their laptops, their mobile phones, their Wi-Fi.
Today, the biggest forest in the world is nothing but a huge construction, or destruction site. Today the seventh continent is about to appear, today bees are about to disappear in the Global North.
Today the most important thing in the world is money. Today the trend in the people's interest is the bust size of a reality show's star and the price of a useless car. Today people want more, instead of enjoying what they have.
Today the world's population is wasting time, money, objects, nature. Today, the human being is wasting life.
Today people don't like their lives. Today people want more. A better wife, or husband. A better family. A better TV, computer, car. A better job. Today people want, without trying to get. Today people stay with their unsatisfactory husband, or wife. They stay with their family, without accepting it, without trying to change. They keep their TV, computer, car. They keep their job. Today people try to live.
Today people try to live. Today people try to love. Without accepting what they dislike. Without changing their state of mind. Today people want to love what they want to love. The others have to change for them.
Today people drink. Today people drink for all reasons. They drink to forget. Forget what? No idea. Today people drink to forget they failed in living, they failed in loving. People drink to celebrate. Celebrate what? Everything. Everything is a good reason to forget. Forget what... Today people drink. Because they want to feel alive, even if they have to suffer after. Because it is worth it.
"Come on, we have to celebrate it" they say.
Today is my birthday.
Today I'm a student. Today I realise that I know nothing. That I am nothing. That I want nothing. Today I realise that my friends are only contacts.
Today I am tired of trying. Trying to protect myself. Trying to work. Trying to enjoy my life. Trying to live. Today I realise that my life is not worth it.
Today is my birthday.
But I don't care.
Because Today is the last day.
