What You Don't Know Could Fill the Universe

Emmie

I have always been a nobody, invisible, and it helps when you live in some small town in North Dakota. Once I graduate high school, I am out of here. I don't exactly hate it, but I definitely will never love it. Ever since I moved her from New York when I was 13, I have been waiting to go back to my family. I know this sounds weird, but they couldn't afford me. I was what my Uncle calls "too expensive, and not just by money." With 9 other siblings, I guess your last child was a mistake. I feel like that a lot, a big fat mistake. No friends, but I don't really care (is that normal by the way?), my family never comes to visit, probably because my parents got divorced, then my mom had twins with my new step dad. If you can afford twins, how can you not afford me? Twins take a lot of love and a lot of money, but one 15 year old doesn't. I can't complain that much, I mean, my older brother does visit me. His name is Robert. He is the closest thing I have to family. He would live with me, and he even promised to gain custody over me and go live in Florida, but he has to finish college so he can get a job. yeah, my life is difficult and frustrating, but I've gotten used to it. Now, it doesn't seem as almost perfect as it was before. Now that I saw that girl, Juniper, now I want a friend. A real friend. Not like all those girls who complement my hair (which is always a mess) then immediately ask, let me rephrase that, demand for help with their homework. Juniper would be a real friend, we would have sleepovers and I would talk to her about my family issues and how I have been waiting since forever to get out of here. And she would tell me about, well I don't know, I have to meet her first. The one useful thing my parents ever told me was if you don't do it now, you won't do it ever. So I did it now. I walked outside two days after Jack's Downfall (that kid was horrible to me), sat right next to her outside, got a three books out of my bag, opened up my lunch, and started to eat while I read. "Good book." I heard a soft voice say. I turned, surprised, a mouthful of food in my mouth. "Huh?" I say.

"Your book, it's good. I read it like 50 times!" she said blushing.

"Wait really, me too! I love this book!"

"Ohmygosh! No way, best book ever!"

"Don't you just love how..." and that's how I got to know her. I told her everything about me I could think of, and when I told her about moving to Florida with my brother, she blurted out "Can you pack me in your suitcase?" We both laughed and I almost choked on my sandwich, which made us laugh even harder. After lunch, we showed each other where our lockers where and solemnly swore to meet the other before school at mine and before lunch at hers. She asked me if I was going to try out for band and possibly Art Club. I told her that I was thinking of doing it, but if she was going to do it, of course I was going too!

At the end of the day, right before I went to bed, I wrote myself I note.

"Don't ever ever not have a friend again. It is the best feeling in the world. :) Emmie from the Past"