so this is kinda something that i just wrote really quickly idk i was bored with same feels bc theres nothing else that hapens in my life so oops here ya go .
it actually really sucks but i thought i might as well just upload something since i think im giving up on all my other fanfics but ya basically this is like aone shot/kinda a part of a story i might write? idk i just wrote it one night and just found it on my computer so i thought i might as well upload it soo here ya goo(:
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He grabbed my hand and laced his fingers through my own. He watched our hands entangle intently and placed tiny kisses on the side of my hand all the way down to my wrist, where he flipped my hand over and examined the visible cuts. he stared at them for a few minutes before leaning down and giving each slash a long love filled kiss. He pulled back after lingering for a few seconds.
“why do you do it?” he asks. I breathe in and pull my hand away. “no.. Wait” he says pulling my hand back to him. He puts it over his chest, right on his beating heart. “do you feel that?” he asks. I nod. “its for you. Its all for you” I smile slightly and look down at our entangled legs at the end of the bed. “I love you..” I look up at him “I love you so much and you know that..” he says placing his hand lightly on my cheek. “you’re safe with me. And you can tell me anything” he says looking in my wandering eyes “you know that right?” I nod and lay my head down on his chest. He lays flat on his back and wraps one arm around my skinny fragile body, while keeping my hand wrapped in his. “you’re the only perfect part in my life.” I say quietly. “and you are my life..” he answers. I nudge my head up and look up at him. “im weak” I answer, hesitantly. He gives me a confused look and I swallow. “I do it,” I say lifting our hands up, gesturing toward my wrist, “because I’m weak.” I answer quietly. He shakes his head “ but you’re not.” he says “I know your not. You’re strong. You’re the strongest girl, person, human being I have ever met!” I grimace “you are so incredibly strong. And beautiful. And smart. And perfect. And you dont deserve to be hurting like this. I dont want you to hurt like this.” I sigh “sam, I dont choose to be like this. I dont choose to be sad, or depressed, or lonely, or insecure. And I cant control weather I am or not. But I know, that when I’ with you. Things aren’t so bad. And I have hope. That things could actually maybe get better.” he looks down at me and lets a breath of air come out of his mouth.
“thats all I want.” I smile up at him and he leans down, placing a sweet gentle smiling kiss on my lips. He pulls away and I lay my head back down on his chest. “I love you so much sam” I say quietly as I watch the christmas lights in his room twinkle.
“I love you so much more,” he answers kissing the top of my head “so much.” he murmurs, with his cheek resting on the top of my head. “and I’ll always protect you” he says.
And for the first time in years I fell asleep feeling safer than I ever have in my whole entire life.
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so yeah that was that. tell me if you guys liked it and stuff maybe i'll write more if i want to? idk but yeahh thanks for readingg love youu
