Themes

Shoreline

A million questions tainted my mind. Where am I going? What am I doing with my life? If I die today will I leave my mark? Am I truly just living ?

I thought back to my life and saw nothing- absolutely and utterly just nothing. Parties? Friends? Movies? All this is nothing. A party ends in a few hours, friends back stab you, movies last only one hour. Then more questions popped in my head...

Did I have something worth living for? Did I have something stable in my life? Am I a reason for someone to live? The questions kept pouring into my mind like a rushing river, however, they were soon interrupted.

"Hello," said a blue eyed boy. His hair was messy and he had a bright warm smile. I wasn't going to be fooled.

"Who are you?" I sneered at him and turned my eyes to slits. He didn't take my threat and laughed a musical laugh. He smiled brightly and his eyes glowed with prosperity.

"Follow me," he commanded, and for some reason I followed. My body took me to a beach and the view took my  breath away. I saw the rain and the sun working together to form the most beautiful rainbow I've never seen.

Without my permission, a smile formed on my lips. A genuine smile, it's been a while. Happiness filled my heart and I was warmed with joy. Was this how it feels to be happy, to be at peace?

"How, how did you do it?"

"Live for the beauty, create the beauty." He replied not answering my question.

"Just like the rain, you'll have stormy days. Just like the sun, you'll have bright days. But you have to join the pieces together and form a rainbow."

I thought about it, and knew it was true.

This unknown person had a point and he was just right. I had always complained about the little things in which I thought were petty. But I realized they were the most important. I had taken those little things for granted and overlooked them as unimportant, not realizing these were the essential.

"I- I understand. But even, even if these things are going to be even the littlest of importance to me. What about them? The memories I shared with them might not even matter. Like they say, life goes on."  I turned away from the view and it instantly started raining and I began to enter a state of depression. The view was gone and it started to rain again.

"It seems to me that I have more stormy days, than sunny days. If life does go on, it'd be like this forever."

"If you let it go on this way you will drown in your own problems. You'll flood your mind with tainted feelings and never be able to get over it."

" Stop! Just Stop! I don't need your advice or feedback on my life. I don't know you and you're not apart of it! Any of it!"

I felt the questions crowding my mind, a million voices were screaming at me. They were so loud- so shocking I couldn't stand up and felt my eyesight dotting black. I felt the rain envelop me and soak my sorrows.

Then, I heard his voice.

"Love every person you meet and give them a smile that shows them the reason why they are here."

I felt his hand hold mine, and his warmth radiating next to me.

" You can't help me."

Then I realized, no one was around me. The world was empty and I was left all alone, just me, myself, and I. Where is everybody? Was it only me living this whole time? I swear just an hour ago- everyone was here-

I was scared, too scared. Amiss my endless sea of problems I couldn't see the bottom, I couldn't see anything. My vision and mind clouded by fear. The rain pounded against my surroundings like a gavel. The constant pounding overshadowed my control, I couldn't think straight.

"This is how it's like, to be really alone. If you can't let anyone help you or even help yourself. What is left? Only the emptiness in your heart, the feelings of despair and self pity. The only thing left to consume you is death."

I looked up and found myself on the bridge. He was there..

"People could fly you know," he said with a glowing smile. But this time I couldn't smile back, I couldn't reply.

He looked down the water and smiled a dark smile, something sinister. In a blink of an eye he was gone. However, I found myself at the edge over looking the water. The waves crashed against the pillars, and the storm raged on. I could fly? Just one step and I'd be free... one step , just one step. Was that all it took?

I looked down the crashing waves, and then the rainbow in the sky. The birds wings soared and cut through the sky piercing the sunset. I'd take the step when the sun disappears from the horizon.

The sun slowly hid behind the horizon. Its light reflecting different hues onto the clouds. Sun gone, stars in the sky, take the step, then I'd fly.

I took the step, but my wings couldn't lift me.

I'm all alone