Sometimes in class
I think of my family
My nan just getting out of hospital
Having no choice but to put my grandad in a nursing home
Due to my grandads Dementia
Sometimes in class
I think of my friends
My best friend still recovering from years of a abusive father
Whos magically decided to be a real father
My school friend being depressed
She cuts herself because her step father abuses her
And my other best friend
She did sexting with a few guys
Just so they would like her
Now she has to deal with the embarrasment of her whole family knowing about it
Sometimes in class
I think about my mistake relationship
Dating a girl while she was dating a mate of mine
Letting her use us both
Falling in love with her
Cutting myself over her
Sometimes in class
I think about my dad
I wonder if he will ever be the father I deserve
Or if he cares for me and my sister at all
Sometimes in class
I think of my Nan
I think how she suffered from lung cancer
and how she went though all that pain
just to die from medication
that was supposed to be helping her
Sometimes in class
I have run out
just so no one will see me crying
for the loss of my Nan
for the failure father
for the abuse my friends have had to suffer
for the mistakes I made
Sometimes in class...
There will be announcement
of a loss of a fellow student
people will cry
and deny the truth
Sometimes in class..
I find tears in my teachers eyes
as they struggle to get though the lesson
I see my friend being comforted as they cry
for the one they miss
Sometimes in class
They ask why...
Why would I kill myself?
And if I could give them an answer
It would never be the truth
because it was them
my father
and my mistakes
Sometimes in class
I watch my friends
my teachers
and I realize how much
I helped them
Sometimes in class
I see the pain in the eyes of the ones I love
and I know I put it there
Sometimes in class..
I'm sorry for what I have done.
