Jaden

Prolouge

June 15th, 2015

Dear Diary,

My friend bought me this diary to help me "vent my feelings out in a healthy way." God, you hurt yourself on purpose one time and now your friend won't get off your back. I love them and all but they're so overprotective it's annoying. I guess that's the first thing i'll vent in here.

Anyway, my name is Jaden Evelyn, a trans male. I just turned 15 today, and i attend Wells Hill High School in Oklahoma. I am about 5'4 and weigh around 107lbs. I have curly brown hair cut as short as my parents let me get it, and a few freckles on my face. My eyes are dark green, and i am pretty scrawny and feminine looking, and i hate it.

I have been professionally diagnosed with ADD, depression, anxiety, and Aspergers. I show symptoms of BPD and DPD.

My family is...not fun to live in. They are extremely religious, transphobic, homophobic, ableist, etc. They are the most problematic people to walk this earth, almost as bad as Donald Trump. I am closeted to my family, but my friend (the same one who gave me this diary) was able to give me a binder. Thank god they exist. My parents let me cut my hair short and dress in masculine clothing, but i can't let them know i'm trans. They'd kill me.

The really only time they make me look feminine is on Sunday: church day. I hate Sunday so fucking much. I have to dress up in a dress and sandals, and i can't wear my binder, leaving me with crushing dysphoria. If i dress up, why can't i just wear a tuxedo? Or a suit?

Because god decided to make me dfab and stick me in a family that believed that no girl should appear masculine (or as they called it causal) at church. I hated them so much.

I'm getting off track, im supposed to be talking about myself here.

I guess you could say i have some "bad habits." I smoke and drink. I have been since 13. My friend hates it. "You're killing yourself!" They always say. So what? I deserve to die.

I'll talk about my friend later, when they give me permission. They hate being used without permission after...never mind.

Did i leave anything else out? I don't think so.

I should just introduce what the rest of this diary will have in it. Ramblings from me. Depression and rage put into a trans male's body.

Jaden.

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A/N: so that was the introduction to this series!

Yes, this will be a series. I'm planning on making 3-4 parts.

Time for a little help from you guys!

Should Jaden's friend (who gave them the diary) be named:
A.) Iza (pronounced eye-za)
B.) Fawn
Or C.) Paw

Please vote!

Anyway, I hope you enjoy!