Her Last Words - Courtney Parker

I'm Sorry

   Just an average girl, she always wore a smile. She was cheerful and happy for a short while.
But now she's older things are getting colder, life's not what she thought she wished someone had told her.
She told you she was down, you let it slip by. So from then on she kept it on the inside. She told herself she was alright but she was telling white lies can't you tell? Look at her dull eyes.
She tried to stop herself from crying almost every night, but she knew there was no chance of feeling alright.
Summer came by all she wore was long sleeves. Cause those cuts on her wrists were bleeding through you see. She knew she was depressed didn't want to admit it. Didn't think she fit it, everyone seemed to miss it.
She carried on like a soldier with a battle wound. Bleeding out from every cut her body consumed.

She had no Friends at school, all alone she sat. If someone would notice she would blame the cat.
But those cuts on her wrists, there were no mistakes. But no one cared enough to save her from this self hate.
Things are going down never really up. And now here she is now stuck in this stupid rut.
You know exactly what she had to do next. Just stand on the chair and tie the rope around her neck.

She wrote a letter with her hands shaking wild "Look at me now are you proud of your precious child?"
But she knew her parents weren't the ones to blame, it was the world that should bow down its head in shame.
stood up on the chair and looked out at the moment. Just don't think, it'll be over soon.

The chair fell down a she took her final breath. It's all over, all gone, now she's greeting death.
Her mum walks in, she falls down to the floor. And now nothing can take back what she just saw.
Little girl that she raised is just hanging there. The body is pale and have faces violently bare.

She sees the note and unfolds it with care. All she does is stare, "How can this be fair?"
You starts reading as the tears roll down her face.
"I'm sorry mum but this world is just not my place, i've tried for so long to fix this and fit in, I've come to realise this world is full of sin.
There is nothing for me here, I'm just a waste of space. I've got no reason to stay here with this awful race.
It's a disgrace, I was misplaced, born in the wrong time, and the wrong place. It's okay though, cause you'll see me soon.
You'll know when your time has come, just look at the moon. As it shines bright, throughout the night. And remember everyone's face in their own fight. But I can't deal with the pain, I'm not a fighter. You make through the night, just hug your pillow tighter.
Let the world know, that I died in vain. Because the world around me, is the one to blame. And I know in a year, you'll forget I'm gone.
Cause I'm not really something to be dwelled on. It's what they used to tell me, all those kids at school, so I'm going by the law majority rules.
My presence on this earth is not needed any longer. And if anything I hope this makes you stronger. You're the best friend, that I ever had.
Such a shame I had to make you so very sad. Just remember that you meant everything to me. And to my heart, you're the only one that held the Key. Now it's time to go I'm running out of space to wright. And yes I lost my fight, but please just hold on tight.
I'm watching over you, from the clouds above. And sending down the purist and whitest dove. To watch over you, and be my helpful eye.  So this is it world goodbye."