Sammy and Me

Pure Black

Lets go back when things were just getting started.

When i mysteriously black out for the first time and wake up and cant remember a thing.

When i had seemed to have said and done things i dont remember doing at all.

When i was more confused than ever.But yet id go back and be scared of the blackouts if i could still be an innnocent.

So where did it all start?Nothing triggered her to come out her coming was inevitable.She was ganna come rather i liked it or not.

I was a perfect child.

I cleaned without being asked.

I did my homework.

Cleaned my messes always ,and had perfect manners.

In fact i was to perfect. i always wanted to please people that are impossible to please so i pushed myself anyway.And so i pushed myself so hard i counted out my feelings and looked out for everyone elses .Isnt that the perfect child thing to do?

So there i was at school middle of seventh grade and i had friends alot of friends but one of them a girl she liked to make little side comments that were always taken lightly. But one day i think she took it to far i think she set me off the ticking time bomb i was.I blacked out.