My life upside down.

Are there feelings here?

Dear diary,

Today is Oct.10th,2015. Love is dead. Love is kind. Love is NOT in my dictionary of life unfortunately.Usually when ever I like someone, it doesn't go as planed. I told my  past crush Colby Madsen, that I liked him, but then he stopped talking to me. So as planned I stopped talking to him too. Then after a while I found out he didn't like me, if that wasn't obvious enough. Then I also found out that he liked my friend Tori, that really broke me. You have no idea.

How would you feel if he guy you've been crushing on sense 7th grade didn't like you? We actually recently just started talking. Then I realized something, I don't like him anymore. And shockingly I still don't. When I say that I really liked him, I mean like a lot. When ever he would flirt with a girl, I would be sad for the rest of the day, it was bad.

But now I feel free of liking him. You know what I mean? Then on June 14th,2015. My best friend and I met this amazing guy, Andrea. He really is something else. It kills me. But the funny this is, is that, I like him way more than I liked Colby. When ever Andrea texts me, I get all chocked up, I don't know what to say! I know right now I must sound like a complete girly girl, but its true. When Colby and I texted it was just awkward, we had nothing in common, we rarely talked, we were like total strangers.

Then I started texted Andrea. We had so much in common! We even Skype.... And when I say he looks sexy as hell, I mean he looks sexy as hell. Its so much torcher. Our conversations NEVER get awkward, we talk all the time, and I already have feelings for him? Andrea, me, and May are already the 3 musketeers pretty much. Its amazing. He's amazing.

LADIES IF I WERE YOU, I WOULDN'T WAIT TO FIND THAT SPECIAL SOMONE. OKAY?