Loveless [ON TEMPORARY HOLD]

~*~CHAPTER 1.~*~

As usual I wake up screaming 'no' or 'bloody murder' and as usual I freak out and so did mum and my older brother.

This has been happening since mum said she would get married again, and let's just say my siblings didn't agree and neither did I.

I don't want to repeat the past, it is bad enough to remember it every second of my life, but I have been having nightmares since I was 11 years old.

Just the fact that another man would be at the house, again, scared me, but what most scared me to death is that the same fate of the past could happen again.

I don't think I can take or beard another heartbreak like that. After what happened years ago I lost trust on people.I always try to stay away from anyone, including my family.

"Skyler" I was snapped out of my thoughts by someone calling me.

"Sky, are you listening" He questioned and I quickly turned around, only to be faced by my brother.

"What" He asks as I try to put in more personal space.

"Yo-you're to-o close" I whisper. When I say I always try to stay away from anyone I wasn't kidding. I don't like being close to people which means a.) I want to have as much personal space as possible, and b.) I want to always be alone.

But my brother doesn't pay no mind to plan b.) He is always beside me like a guardian and my shadow.

"Sorry" He said as he reluctantly takes 2 steps away while I just nodded stiffly.

"Anyways, do you feel ready to go back to school" he asked and my eyes widened as I quickly shook my head multiple times. Nope I'm not going there.Well I like school, but that means not as much personal space, which means I will not be alone...which means both plans are broken each day of the school year.

I'm only just thinking about it and I'm already freaking out. I could tell my brother saw it in my face or eyes because he quickly says in a calm tone,

"Of course if you aren't ready you will not go,okay,don't stress out,alright?".My response was to nod yet again in a slow manner while he kept his worried eyes planted on me.

"Scott can you go to the store and buy me this" Mum said, while handing a small piece of paper to Scott, my brother.

"Of course-" He started but stopped and looked at me, pressing, with puppy dog eyes, "Do you want to come Sky?" A small feel of panic went rushing through me and yet, for my brother's sake, I let a small shaky sigh out and instead nodded my head.

"Yes," he said happily adding a swift, "Come on," and I nodded my head yet again before following him towards the front door.

"Hey wait, Skyler if you feel uncomfortable make sure to tell Scott, so you 2 can come home okay," My mum tells Scott and me and the both of us nod though Scott did it in more of an annoyed way while I was more than excited to follow that rule.

"Alright boys, bye" She said with a smile and waved us out.

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The walk to the store was, for me, comfortable. I say for me only because I know Scott didn't like the silence. He tries to make a conversation more than once and I disappoint him by responding with a simple nod or whispering out a very short answer.
Yeah, I don't like to talk that much. I'm scared to get close to someone knowing that they will hurt me in the end.

Love is always like that. It can be beautiful and happy and heart pumping, but in the end the only feelings you get are emptiness and a broken heart. It is a horrible experience that I don't want to repeat again. Never. Not with anyone. Not even my own family. And after those thoughts I started to feel anxious.