Beautiful suicide

I sit in my room and cry as I die inside

I watched my best friend go through suicide

She was everything I ever wanted to be except happy

She gave everyone a smile even when she couldn't make her own

I thought I was there for her but it turned out a lie

All she is now is a beautiful suicide

The last thing she said to me was that she was a mistake

That very next day she did what it takes

She left me

Never to come back again

All I wanted to do was be her best friend

But I can't the truth is

I'm the mistake

She saved my life when I couldn't save hers

I owed her my life and I couldn't even do that right

With a slit in her neck I found her dead

On what use to be her bed

I continue to cry for that very night

I wish I could bring her back but the truth is I can't

She was mine little secret until that night

Till she finally set flight

My once angel is gone and is now were she belongs

I can't help but be upset because now she isn't mine but a beautiful suicide.