You'll Never Know

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This is really stupid and I don't know why I'm actually telling you this, but you know already. I get so so so so so jealous when you even talk to girls and I have no idea why. You tell me that you're never gonna leave me and I know that but I don't know why I still feel uncomfortable when you talk to other girls. No matter how many times you tell me that you're not gonna leave me or cheat on me, I'm still going to feel this way, and I can't control it. I don't want to restrict you from talking to other girls or anything because I feel like I'm controlling you and stuff. But if you told me to stop talking to any guy, even Andres and Peter, I would stop talking to them. I love you but I don't know why I can't trust you. I'm sorry. This is like not even your fault, it's mine. It's because of the way I think and everything. If you don't want to be with me anymore for any kind of reason, then I understand. I'm so insecure about myself and everyone else is like Beyonce or something. That's why I get really jealous when you talk to someone else. Ugh, this is really long and probably boring you, so I'll stop...