Falling apart

Chapter 1

It was a cold windy night I was home with my father, and my mum was making her way home she always works 1 hour away from home. My mum and I are actually very close, mum is the one I tell everything to. However I thought I might call her and see if she is okay and to ask when she'll be home? So I did, I called her, ring...ring...ring,
the sound of the answering machine left me with nothing to say because its her voice, after I called her I tried once more but that extra call left her in life-support she must have took one blink off the road and the next thing you know she was fighting for her life on the side of the road this is what one of the witnesses said she was a lovely lady very bright and bubbly.

Thats when we got a call but it was an odd call it said from emergency services... They said "Hi, you must be Bella I am the police reporting that your mum has been in an incident I'll give you a moment hun" said the police men, I sunk to the ground questions ran through my head like what if this is my fault what if she took her eyes of the road, thats when the police officer heard me sniffle and he said "you are able to come visit her in hospital but im sorry to say she is in a very critical situation and it is a life or death situation. Your mother won't be up for talking due to giving her some sleeping tablets."

I continued to cry what was I surposed to say I mumbled out the words "what happened" and then there was pure dead silence and too this day 2 years later i still have no answers. I miss mum so much i continue saying i still cant get over the fact that she is gone.

I grew depressed over the period, I joined a gang called the 'deadly kings' i was not a 'goodie to shoes' anymore. I had done everything from smoking weed and getting high to murdering innocents. I wasn't a very proud person however, this took all my depression and put me in my happy place my dad has already disowned me, he cant sleep he has tablets every night everyone is worried about us but me I'm not at all dad wants nothing to do with me and neither does my ex-best friend.

She ditched because apparently I'm a... I mean I cant even say the words...'Bad Influence' "ha yeah right" thats funny. She has blocked me on everything because her mum hates me to. I dont even remember our friendship anymore however she was that friend I told EVERYTHING too and she was known to most people the chic that cant keep a secret, yeah a secret. I never believed that till about a week ago.

She told all my secrets around the school i mean everything around the school and at this school theres no mucking around with a click it spreads to everyone the deadly kings were always here for me but what do I do when this rumour gets to the most popular, hottest guy at my school in fact in my class? This guy was perfect he had blonde hair, blue eyes, braces and black 'nerdy' looking glasses he was so cute.

Everything i had ever said to that girl was going around the school but has it made it to the top yet, this question keeps circling my mind was she a true friend?

Mum was always there for me she always gave me advice now I only have advice from blood killing people however I still take there advice. The leader of this group was so hot and he was the 'bad boy' who told us all what to do. He had the most rosiest cheeks it was adorable. It was now night time we all went for a walk down a dark alley way leading to another school we already broke into that school and never got caught jake the 'boss' had a ciggy in one hand and a gun hiding in his pocket we came along a homeless we gave him some money which made him so happy which made us happy.

See we were never that bad I kept telling myself then we came along a group of dealers and the gang buying the drugs were getting anxious because they didnt want to pay that much for the drugs, I stepped in, I grabbed them out of their hands and ran, I threw them in the bin that's when the dealer must of woken up and realised i put them in the bin, he then followed us, and as we were being chased I yelled "get over it!" getting a reply of "I can't I would have money if you didn't chuck them in the bin money! pure money I can't get over it"

The deadly kings almost got to the point of pulling out the gun I continued smiling until i had a flashback of how sad mum looked in hospital I fell down, that's when man grabbed my hair pulled me up and covered my mouth they didnt know I was stuck here I needed to scream but I couldn't, I mean I could barely breath.

"Shit" was a word mumbled under my breath. "What did you say" I heard the man behind he took his hand off my mouth for second so I mumbled many words out "oh I'm sorry I couldn't speak up when ur hand was over my mouth I sad your shit, and when my crew comes back there going to kill you so run or die your choice" dead silence filled the air, in the corner of my eyes I saw Brody our leader with his gun aiming for a head shot I couldn't see anyone else thats when I knew I was safe I donkey kicked the man behind me in a place I would rather not mention he fell to the ground still hanging to my legs I was stuck yet as he slowly started get up everything was silent then all I could hear was music he turned around so did I as if I was connected to him, I think this was a plan so Brody could get the perfect shots  including head, stomach, leg & arm his aim is amazing I kept quiet.

BANG...BANG...BANG
3 shots fired one hit his head the other hit his stomach and the other hit my arm he missed and got my arm instead the wound is so painful, Yet I honestly didn't have a care in the world, I was free I ran for my life even though no one else was in sight, my arm was treated and there still looking for the shooter. Brody is a smart man and thought of what to wear extremely well, he wore gloves, dropped the gun in a river nearby and the gloves are already in the garbage truck.

Thats when I realised im not tough enough to be in a gang like this!...