Numb

~Chapter 1~

Today was the last day of my junior year at Big Lake High School. I was hoping that  today would be different, why? Because every day before was h--l and I was just so ready to give up.

As I walked through the halls to homeroom, I heard people murmuring words about me. It was the usual like 'who--', 'sl--', 'bit--' and so forth. I used to cry at these words, but now, I was used to it. I was numb. 

When I reached homeroom, I quickly took my seat and thankfully I was late, so no one would be able to talk to me. At least, not yet. 

The day went by slowly, but yet quickly. We had nothing to do today, really. We all just hung around with our friends, well, everyone else did, I just kind of stayed off to the side by myself. The thing that confused me the most, though, was no one bothered me. Which was unusual. Allie and her followers always came to the rescue to make my life even more miserable. But I didn't even ever see her.

When school was over, though, that's when it all started. As I was leaving, I heard someone call my name. I turned around and saw Allie and her crew. There was also Kevin, Charlie, Jake and Andy with her and her friends, Libby, Molly, Helena, Avery and Ivy. 

"Hey, bit--, didn't think we'd let you leave without saying goodbye, now, did you?" Allie asked in a sugary sweet tone.

"What do you want, Allie?" I asked.

Honestly, I don't really know what happened, because after a few moments, I was on the ground getting kicked by all of them. The guys mostly held me down, though. Allie kicked me in my sides, on my ribs and she even stomped on my chest. She stopped, and leaned down to me.

"This will teach you to mess with me, bit--," she growled.

She got up, as with all the others and walked away. Yeah, that's it. They walked away. She walked away. I layed there, my body in pain. Everywhere hurt, everything hurt. 

That's when I decided.

I was going to do it. I had no point in trying to stay here, or to live, or breathe. I waited a few seconds before I tried to get up. Every movement caused pain to shot up my spine. I didn't want to get up, but I knew I had to. Better to end it quicker. It's now or never, right?

When I was off of the ground, I took out my phone and played my favorite song. Over Again. By the one and only, One Direction. I absolutely loved them. In a way, they had saved my life.

Said i’d never leave her cause her hands fit like my t-shirt,

Tongue tied over three words, cursed.

Running over thoughts that make my feet hurt,

Bodies intertwined with her lips

Now she’s feeling so low since she went solo

Hole in the middle of my heart like a polo

And it’s no joke to me

So we can we do it all over again

If you’re pretending from the start like this,

With a tight grip, then my kiss

Can mend your broken heart

I might miss everything you said to me

And I can lend you broken parts

That might fit like this