When she cries [ErenxSuicidal!Reader]

♥When she cries♥

"One for being fat..."

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"One for being stupid.."

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"One for being ugly..."

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"And one for being worthless.."

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Little girl terrified,
She'd leave her room if only bruises would heal,
A home is no place to hide,
Her heart is breaking from the pain that she feels...
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All through your shared apartment cries could be heard. You were just glad your roommate wasn't there to hear your cries of insecurity. Each time you cut yourself you always liked to point out your flaws. You been cutting a lot recently, it would usually happen when your roommate, Eren, was at his part time job at a café somewhere in town, you work there too, but you decided to take a sick day. When you cut you never seem to want to stop, you just keep cutting and cutting until you run out of space. Every day usually has the same routine. You wake up, practice your fake smile, get dressed, Eren leaves for work, you cry, then cook, then cry, then cut..
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Every day's the same.
She fights to find her way
She hurts, she breaks, she hides, and tries to pray.
She wonders why, does anyone ever hear her when she cries?
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Today was different though, today is your birthday. You have always been spending your birthdays alone since Eren and your other two friends have work and your parents kicked you out of your old house. A few people have wished you a 'happy birthday' though but you never care about those.

"Happy 16th birthday Y/N" You said as you started to cry.
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Today she's turning sixteen
Everyone's singing, but she can't seem to smile
They never get past arms length
How could they act like everything is alright?
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"Every cut counts..."

One

Two

Three

Four

Five

Six

Seven

You look at your fresh cuts as crimson coloured liquid drips down from your red lines. Pain shooting to you like a gun would when you get shot. You smile slightly at your red, painful work of art, starts to give out more blood.
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Pulling down her long sleeves
To cover all the memories the scars leave
She says, "Maybe making me bleed
will be the answer that could wash the slate clean."
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Everything you've been through you hide with your fake smile. Everyday you fight your depression. It was your war and you needed to fight it yourself. You never seem to win. Everyday your broken and you never asks for help. Not even Eren knows about your broken state.
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Every day's the same
She fights to find her way
She hurts, she breaks, she hides, and tries to pray
She wonders why, does anyone ever hear her when she cries?
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"Y/N?" A male voice said as you heard the door close.

You knew who it was. But you were a little confused why he's back so early.

"Y/N, where are you?"

You looked at the unclosed bathroom door and quickly closed it. You looked back at your scars.