This is a book for some who want to know me.
It all started at my life start where i got not loved by my family and abused me physically and so i got mentally a bit broken when I went to elementary school i fell for a girl that was the first time I felt something you could call love but still it wasn't fully love after the 3rd grade I asked her if she want to spend time with me there it started my curse of weirding girls out I told her I feel different around her and that i was happy to be around her after that day i got mentally cracked and started to talk to me as third person and started a persona called Vanessa who should be like my girlfriend but that didn't helped after I finished elementary school I went to a middle school and there I found kik and downloaded it for two reasons
1.) To get maybe a gf
2.) for nudes of girls
But after a half of a year or so I stopped and finished school but in the last day they was a girl who was obviously drunk and took me to the toilet and i was so under shock that was the first time i had sex with 14
After I went to my currently school I downloaded kik again to find a gf again and i got so mentally broke i did with 13 an acc on kik as a girl called sofie and started again to get a gf since it was the last year I thought I would live i lied much around I said i am sofie and that i am a good girl and different things then I found a gf what was a boy but that is not so important then I entered a group chat.
