When I entered the group chat anyone more or less ignored me but not a boy and a girl.
I still was saying i was sofie so that girl fell for me and the boy too after a week or so the girl who is the most important showed up
That girl is currently my sister and a cool person.
She was very depressed and sad after a day and I felt I need to help her so i did build her up and somehow myself too after a couple of hours she asked me if we could be sister i said yes I would love too and then we were sisters
After some days i pmed with her again about private stuff and she fell for me and she was my first real crush so i was super happy still I felt like she would be like the girl on elementary school and I asked her out if she really does love me and she said yes
I still did felt weird about it so i did something to make her dislike me for now to see if she does come back and meant it or if it was just out of affect but after she returned she said she loved me more and I felt the same
As an idiot i was i did it again and again and make her broke the trust for me through lying just to see if she really loves me and then I stopped and at this points I often also said I would suicide but it was just there it was critical with my heart disease after a few weeks i did it again without even wanting I just was so sad and anything i lied to her and it nearly broke us apart after that I sworn I wouldn't do it again so I stopped
And for a few weeks when I stopped lying to her it was found a way to neutralise my heart disease and i will have a operation soon and it be ok
I stated as a goal to meet her and say her thank you my way and i do love her now ❤️ and forever will
This was my life until now
