It gets hard but it won't take away my love

It gets hard but it won't take away my love (1/?)

A/N: so i kind of came up with this idea and started writing it and i really enjoined it so that's why i decided to write more so here's the first chapter :) i don't know if youguys will like it but i hope so and feel free to comment about what you like or dislike. -xx-

Chapter one.

Kurt Hummel opens the door of his office to welcome three people, a man a woman and a guy. I'm Dr. Hummel and I'm going to be your doctor for the coming weeks, months, years... He thought but didn't say the last out loud. 'Eileen Anderson' the woman says as she shakes Kurt's hand. The man follows her examples, he shakes Kurt's hand and says his name 'Arthur Anderson'' the three of them sit down on the chairs in front of Kurt's desk. the guy who obviously is the patient hadn't said a thing since they arrived at the hospital and Eileen started to worry 'Blaine sweetie just say hi to your doctor' Blaine just looks at his lap and remains silent. Kurt feels sorry for the boy he looks younger than him, not all too much probably just a couple of years. Blaine finally looked up at Kurt and started blushing at the sight. His voice sounded so sweet and soft like a it stroked your face once it came near you. Kurt takes a deep breath. 'So Blaine can you tell me what's wrong?' Kurt asks in a gentle voice. Blaine stays silent for a long time. His mother lightly touches his knee and he starts talking. 'I have pain' Blaine says but he immediately regrets he said that. Of course he has else he wouldn't be there. 'Where?' Kurt asks. 'In my side' Blaine says almost inaudible. 'Okay and what else?' 'I'm feeling really tired all the time and I feel sick lately' Kurt nods 'sick as in fever?' 'Yes' Blaine answers. 'Is that it or is there more?' Kurt asks after Blaine paused for a long moment. Blaine looks at his mom as if asking her to speak. 'He lost weight' she says and looks at her son with watery eyes. 'And the uhm the thing' Arthur says. Eileen nods 'he has some sort of lump on his side' she whispers. Kurt only nods. He knew where this was going. They probably knew as well but they were just afraid to say it out loud. Of course they knew they weren't send to Kurt without a reason. Kurt who is an oncologist. Of course Kurt knew it was going to be hard to tell them. But he knew he had to. Kurt recognised the symptoms they told but he couldn't tell them yet he just couldn't he needed to be 100 percent sure. He didn't want to make them worry unnecessarily even though he was sure it wouldn't be unnecessary. 'We need to do blood tests, I know they did already but we need to do some more. Also a CT scan ' Blaine looks from his mom to his dad back to his mom and then he meets Kurt's gaze 'o-okay' he says in a high pitched voice very different from the sound that came out of his mouth less than five minutes ago. 'Well if that's the only solution we'll have to do that' Eileen says. 'Well let's make an appointment then' Kurt says and sits back behind his desk opening the 'agenda' he flips some pages and then traces his finger over an empty spot on the page 'next week Monday?' It was now Saturday so that meant the appointment was going to be in two days. 'T-that's really quick' Blaine says in a nervous voice. Kurt knows that and he did that for a reason because if what he thinks is wrong with Blaine they really need to hurry. Kurt looks at Blaine's parents 'are you both okay with next Monday?' 'I have a day off on Monday so that's good' Eileen answers. 'So next Monday it is' Kurt says and drabbles something on the empty spot. 'So the scan will be at 12:00 but you need to be here a little early so we can tell you what is going to happen and to make you ready' Blaine makes a little movement with his head which he probably meant as a nod. 'So 11:00?' 'That's fine' Eileen answers. 'Good, and we'll prick some blood after the scan is that okay?' 'Y-yes' Blaine says. 'Great, well then I think we're done for now' they all stand up and shake hands again. 'See you on Monday Blaine' Kurt says as he shakes Blaine's hand and holds on to it for a little too long and he feels his cheeks turn pink when he realises. 'Bye Mrs. And Mr. Anderson' Kurt says as they leave his office. The door shuts close behind them and he sits down behind his desk. This is going to be tough.

Blaine woke up from the light that shone into his room. He turned to his side to watch the clock. Half past four. It was too early to get out of bed already but he couldn't sleep anymore. He knew all too well what day it was today. Monday, day of the appointment. Blaine had always been scared of hospitals so that didn't make it any better. He turned back to look up at the ceiling. His stomach hurt and he started to feel more nauseous every time he thought about the appointment. He turned on the TV but on mute scared to wake his parents. He tried to focus on the TV and distract his thoughts but it had no success. He couldn't take it any longer he started to make himself crazy thinking about the things that could go wrong. He got out of bed and went downstairs in his pyjama. Much to his surprise he saw his mom sitting on the breakfast table. 'Hey sweetie' she says in her soft voice 'why are you up already?' She asks looking a little worried. 'I couldn't sleep anymore' 'me neither' she says 'do you want me to make you some tea?' She says as she stands up and walks to the counter. Blaine didn't really feel like drinking tea but he wouldn't disappoint her. She was obviously searching for some distraction too. 'Yes' he says and he sees her smiling. He sits down on a chair and buries his head in his hands which are lying on the table. He lifts his head as he hears a sound and sees her setting the mug in front of him. 'Drink it sweetie it will do you good' she says. 'You look very pale are you okay honey' she says as she takes a good look at him. 'M fine' he mumbles. She sits down opposite of him and softly grabs his hand over the table. 'It's okay to be nervous' she says and looks at him with her bright blue eyes. 'I love you Blaine' she says and kisses his hand. Blaine swallows 'Love you too mom' he manages to say. With every word and every thought he feels the lump in his throat starting to get even bigger. But then he blurts everything out 'I don't want to go mom, I'm scared what if something goes wrong or what if I'm really sick? I'm just so scared' she stand up from her chair and he does the same. She pulls him into a hug and whispers soothing words in his ear while slightly rubbing his back 'ssh it will be okay honey everything will be fine I promise' she says and kisses the top of his head. 'We love you Blaine so so much' she says as she takes his head in both of her hands. He tries to smile he really tries, for her but his face won't cooperate and instead of a smile his face is now covered with tears which start to blur his vision. 'Oh sweetie come here' she says and pulls him back into a hug, tighter this time. She runs a hand through his hair and smiles 'I like your hair like this, you shouldn't gel it all the time' he shrugs and looks at his feet. They stay like that for a long time. Blaine taking comfort of his mother's presence and she in return taking comfort of just hugging her youngest son.