We can play the Games (Lesbian)

Chapter : Really Out My Mind

Author Note: Song is explicit.The person above is not affiliated with this book.

They ask me "If im real" I say "Is you serious."
-Kevin Gates

-Jazmonae

God I love Taylicia. I just can't believe I'm doing this. In front of all our friends and family. I just hope she says yes. I can't imagine my life without her. She's special to me. What if she doesn't says yes? I'm taking a chance.

I'm sitting in my office. Looking sexy of course in my all black outfit. My curly hair is put up and I only have on mascara.

I painted the walls blue and my desk is now white. Actually I changed everything. Everyone knows that. I had a few new art pieces shipped in even though I'm not a fan of art. After all of the betrayal that was going on I just had to change everything around.

Its been 7 months since the incident happened and I have this feelings that it is far from over. But one thing has been constant and that's Tay. The trial went on up until 3 weeks ago and Big and his brother was found guilty. They were sentenced to 27 years for rape and a whole lot of shit I didn't comprehend.

"Jaz are you okay" Dee ask while walking in and interrupting my thoughts. I had found out that she didnt conspire with Big. It was made to look that way.

"Im fine" I answer blankly but to be honest I'm scared I don't know if I can ask Tay to marry me. I know that she loves me absolutely no doubt. But I just don't want to burden her. although I love her. I'm so full of shit it's crazy. I don't know how a lot of people deal with me. Maybe that's why I was raped beaten.
"Why are you lying girl?" Dee ask while sitting on my white sofa. It is very comfortable. I only bought it so that me and Tay can comfortably fuck, not saying I don't like it rough and kinky but the desk was killing me. My ribs aren't fully healed.

Why won't she leave me alone?
"I don't feel good" I answer truthfully my stomach hurts I say while rubbing my belly. And bending over a little. Ive been having severe pain. I feel like I have been getting fat but not noticeably fat. Maybe its my opinion. Although I have missed periods since the whole rape thing, I'm guessing that's becuase of the trama that occurred.
"Good lord Jaz your bleeding there" Dee screams and gets up from the couch.
"Shit my Louie's now have blood on them" I spat
"I'm about to get you help" Was the last thing I heard before I passed out.

-Tay

"Yea we need to rush that order okay get back of me when you find out." I say hanging in the phone with Rachele.
Everything has been going great we are having a party at the office for faculty, family and, friends. Jazmonae is doing way better and I'm greatful. I finally feel like I'm building.
"Tay, Tay" Dee says running up to me with Jaz in her arms. Blood is running down her black jeans. Shit just when I think everything is okay.

"What happened?" I say panicking. Tears are starting to build up in my eyes. I just hope she is fine. This can't happen again. I don't what I'll do if I loose Jazmonae. She is my soul.
"She was bleeding and then she passed out follow me" Dee said running outside to the car
"Everyone we will update y'all on Jan condition just go home" I yelled while following Dee and hoping in the car. We raced to the hospital.

Author Notes: Kevin Gates is my favorite Artists if you don't like his vulgarity I apologize but I love him. Also I hope y'all like comment and share. This book and you guys mean a lot to me.