Reflection

Warmth

"Hey? Bestie? You awake?" I heard Jack whisper loudly. "Mmmph what do you want?" I'm tired. Like, I've never felt this tired before. Sleep just seems like my priority right now, and I want to sleep forever. Owen brought my biggest and heaviest blanket from home, and all of my pillows so I could be comfy... even though I was getting discharged tomorrow. Or today, I really don't know what time it is. "I just wanted to make sure you didn't go all comatose on me again. Are you comfortable? Do you want another blanket? I could give you mine-" "No you are not giving me your blanket do you not feel the coldness in this room? It's literally the coldest room I've ever been in." I opened my eyes and looked towards Jack, and he looked at my in confusion. "It's pretty warm in here. The nurse just turned up the temp in this room because you complained it was cold earlier." He's not even fully awake. It feels like -20 degrees fahrenheit in this stupid room. "What's the temp at?" Jack got up and walked to the thermostat. "Ummm it's 74 degrees fahrenheit in here... 6 degrees above what it really should be set to. I'm gonna go get extra blankets." And before I could protest, Jack left me alone. I closed my eyes, and slowly, I felt numb. Aware of my surroundings, but unable to open my eyes.

The air in the room changed, it got extremely cold. Like, artic circle kind of cold. I curled up into a fetus position, trying to preserve body heat. And suddenly, it happened. I felt a hand touch my cheek, an icy cold hand. I jumped and finally I was able to open my eyes, but I couldn't see. I closed and opened my eyes again, but everything was black. I'm blind oh lord I've gone blind. Then, my eyes started to adjust to the darkness. In front of me was, well, nothing. Nothing was generally in front of me. It was everywhere. Smoke that looked like fog was floating around the hospital room. I breathed, and I could see my breath. The smoke started to gather in the center of my room. I could make out the outline of a women's body. Jack came in suddenly, and shouted. "NOT YET!!!" The smoke turned into his direction. The last thing I remember was warmth...

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"Hey!"..... "C'mon!".....
My ears were ringing, and I could hear a distant voice calling out to me. My body wasn't responding to my brain. I tried to move, but all I could feel was pain. Screaming was impossible, I opened my mouth but no noise came out. My eyes opened just then, and I got lightheaded. I saw double, triple of everything. It was hard to focus and the world was spinning around me.

Warmth surged through my body, and everything started to go into focus. "C'mon C'mon C'mon C'mon C'mon." I looked to my left, and I saw Jack. He was leaning over me, forcing his hands above my heart, pushing down and coming up. "Wake up wake up wake up." He looked frustrated. I don't understand why though. I'm awake. I was looking right at him. I sat up, and immediately I started to scream. Once again, no noise came out. But, all I know is, I sat up and my body didn't follow my movement...

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I was sitting on the bed, next to my body. What in the actual fuck is going on? I'm looking at myself, and let me tell you.. I look like I've been hit with a truck twice and then dragged along asphalt. My hair was in tangles, and it was horribly frizzy. My skin was icy white, and my lips were blue. This made it look like I was trapped in a freezer. My arms and legs were laid out straight by the nurses, slightly spaced apart from eachother. Jack was sitting in a chair next to the bed, his head in his hands. He's been muttering the same eight words since the Smoky Woman appeared. "I'm too late. It's my fault. I'm sorry.". It's been three days since the Smoky Woman appeared, and Jack has been by my side ever since. My brother comes in with my mom sometimes, and my mom always breaks down in tears when she sees me. Now, she can't come in anymore. My brother couldn't take it, me in the bed in a coma, and my mom breaking down everytime she enters the hospital room. So they both stay at home. And Jack stays with me.