Beauty and the Biker

Chapter Eighteen The Roller Coaster Called Life

Last chapter sweeties!!!

I’m really sad to be seeing this story end. I really loved it.

I can’t handle all these feels!! First Say You Love Me ends and now Beauty and the Biker!!

I can’t do this!!

So on a romantic note I would like to announce that I am no longer single. I am currently dating my car because he is the only guy in my life who treats me like a princess. He listens to me without interrupting, he takes me places all the time, he understands me, he doesn’t care about looks, in fact he probably loves that I’m short because he was made for smaller sized people (He’s a PT Cursor), and he’s adorable. Yep its decided screw men I love my car.

Right now one of my friends is reading over my shoulder and I’m pretty sure that she is considering taking me to a mental hospital. NOTHING WILL EVER END OUR LOVE!!

Back to seriousness.

This ending chapter was inspired by Nora Roberts' story Waiting for Nick. It's an icredible story and one of my very favorites. Robets is a fantastic writer annd my idol. 

Enjoy the chapter.

(V) (;,,;) (V)

Chapter Eighteen The Roller Coaster Called Life

-Derek-

            I thought about going out and loosing myself in another girl. It was an easy escape, but it would just only mess everything up more and I couldn’t draw up much enthusiasm for it.  I’ve gotten through the past few days without her but I didn’t sleep. I couldn’t do anything. Even when I tried working on one of the motorcycles that I loved so much brought nothing to me.

            I had no right to ever expect her to forgive me not after everything I had done, not after that stupid plot I had.

            It was an insane idea to ever make her love me. But insane or not I had only wanted to be with her. It was hopeless though now. The girl that I had done everything to win didn’t love me. All she felt now was disdain.

            Saw to that didn’t you Ryder? You idiot.

            I’d had a shot. It was all clear to me now that it was all over. I had never needed that stupid plan to make her love me. She always had. I’d had a chance to love and be loved but I mucked it up by complicating it.

            How could I have been so stupid, so blind? It had always been her. If I had good news she was the one I went to first. If I was down I knew it would only take her voice over the phone to cheer me up.

            Friends, that was what had thrown me for so long. We had been friends and that had prevented both of us for realizing what we had. I had figured it out first but being the stupid boy that I was I had taken the wrong direction to make her realize it too. I had never deserved her.

            I had used tricks and lies to win her over. I had never given her the soft words that she had deserved. I had never actually gone the direction of trying to have a real relationship with her.

            Now I’d lost her.

            I let my head fall back against the chair I had been sitting in in my bedroom and closed my eyes. She was better off without me.

            The knock on my bedroom door had me jumping up. She had come back was all I could think.

            All the pleasure died from my face when I saw Ivy. “Well that’s quite a greeting.” She said.