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Today, today is the day I leave for Korea, the reason why I'm leaving for Korea is not for vacation nor family but in fact to leave family. Sometimes I wonder if I'm making the right choice, do you ever wonder what its like, what its like to be free but also wonder if anyone would miss you, if they would want you back, if they ever cared, if they mean it when they say" I love you"

I don't know if I'm making the right choice by leaving or if I'm making a bad one by leaving. But it doesn't matter anymore I'm leaving and I'm not changing my mind because what's the point I've waited so long just to leave and I get that chance, tomorrow actually,

I have saved all my money for this trip so when I get there I'll have nothing but the stuff I brought with me, I have little money and little clothes but I rather be broke and on the streets then stay.

I had a bad child hood and because of my childhood I wanted to make other people feel what I feel and I didn't know it was wrong until now. I was a bully and I was a bad one, I made the same girl cry everyday and I never felt anything till now I feel guilty, ashamed, embarrassed and depressed because I don't want to hurt anyone but I did and I abogized I apologized so many times I even got down on m knees to say sorry I also I cried, I cried for hours on end thinking of what I have done I have thought of sucide because I know a lot of people wanted me gone but I couldn't do it I just couldn't.

Im currently packing but I don't have vary much to pack I don't want to bring all my stuff but I still need clothes and shoes, I packed about too bags full of stuff.

I don't really want to finish school when I get to korea but I really want to audition im going to audition for yg, oh god you don't know how much I want to audition, but I don't have too high hopes of making it im not vary talented but I mean its worth a shot.

i gues i have to wait and see what will happen tomorrow.

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