As a child
No one saw me
So I hid in my mind
As medicine for the pain
A lifetime of hiding in the shadows
I never wanted pictures of myself
Because I wanted no trace of my existence
But the truth is
I wanted my picture taken
I wanted to be seen
Every living thing wants to be notice
To be appreciated
I numb my heart to this family
To this pain
I've cried so many tears
That no one has ever seen
Sometimes
You just want someone to say your beautiful
Tears falling as I sit here in the dark once again
I write words
Like a gun shot victim
Bleeds blood
This is my pain
From the shadows of my mind
