Do you ever get the feeling of "what have I done?" or "Why the hell did i do this?" because thats pretty much how i feel at this point. And you know how a lot of girls like those sappy love stories, I mean I do. Well this is going to be one of those stories. But with fake love lots and lots of fake love. So lets start at the beginning.
My name is Lavender Armonie (cool name right.) and since i was about 9 or 10 I've liked boys and girls. By that i mean stopped caring about "cooties" and yes I'm bisexual. I go to riverside high and do not enjoy human contact. I hate talking to people I hate people talking to me, except Ryan. God i could talk to him for hours. I mean his face his voice it makes me melt. Most girls think he's strange looking or don't even know him but oh god i knew him. But he didn't know I felt that way so we stayed friends.
"I guess Ryan's friend was cute i could date him till he liked me." I whispered to myself my friend Angela looked over at me and giggled "You mean jake? Pff good luck with him he's a nerd" I looked at her confused "So what maybe i like nerds. And you should listen to your own thoughts" she shook her head and looked back at the teacher as she called on me "Ms. Armonie do you know the answer?" I looked up in shock everyones eyes facing me the girl who never talks in big crowds and expected an answer so i whispered "32?" The class erupted in laughter Mrs.Lalonde yelled at me "Are you aware you are in French class? Please go sit out in the hall till you are aware that this is not math!" she pointed at the door and i quickly gathered my things and ran to the hall. I was so embarrassed i started crying into my backpack "Hey, are you alright?"
I heard a soft voice ask so i looked up in shock to find jake "Y-yeah I'm good." I lied "well do you mind if i stay till you feel better. I have art so it doesn't matter how long I'm gone". He sat down and slid his arm around me "thanks" i whispered wiping my tears. We sat in silence for a few seconds until he picked up my face and said "Did you know that your very beautiful?" I felt my face grow warm and he laughed as he saw me blushing "I suspect you get told this often?" He continued. I shook my head. I watched his face go from serious to shocked "But you're amazing i don't see how other people don't see that L" Now i was shocked "You just called me "L" only my friends call me that" I said sounding kinda rude "Aww so we aren't friends. I was hoping a pretty girl like you would at least be my friend." I giggled "We are I guess I just didn't think you liked me.". "Well now you know i do but i better go now before i get in some serious trouble." he said as he ran down the hall. A few minutes later the bell rang and I forgot to go back inside. Oh well thats not my problem anymore.
As I was walking home I heard a familiar voice say "Hey cutie need a ride home?" I turned around slowly "Jake?" "Yeah baby who else?" he said opening the door "Nice car" i whispered and i guess he didn't hear me. "so where do you live babe?" he asked "Why do you keep calling me that and other things". "Uhh I dunno you can walk from here right?" he asked ".....Yeah" I whispered as I got out of the car. As i shut the door he sped off "Oh... alright then" I said to myself as I started walking home.
