10AM
Fuck, I need to get up. Ive been lying here in my bed since like..9? Anyways, Im probably just gonna go out, take some photos and write a part of a lil book. Its called The Hospital. Its about a guy who wakes up in a hospital. Thats all i have so far. Anywho, i hate myself. My arms are scarred from a... problem because my father passed on, I weigh about 10 stone but look like 15 and I just...cant seem to do anything right...Honestly thats how my stepdad made me feel. All day, everyday. Constantly putting me down for no reason. Calling me fat, ugly and telling me to get over my dads death. Thats still proving to be a challenge because I still have issues with his passing to this very day. I hate my stepdad. Thank God he got battered up the arse by a car. He's not dead though, he's just brutally wounded. LOL. Oh well.
6PM
Well today was...meh. I done a bit of photography and didnt do anything involving the book. Oh well, I might just drop it. I honestly want to just die to go up and see my daddy again. He was my best friend. Always there for me. You could talk to him about ANYTHING. Even my few friends said that and he was just over all the most chilled guy ever. He would help me in any way he could and when i was sick, he would always order a pizza. What a fucking lad. But the bastard that is cancer took him away... I hope i go just a bit deeper and go up to Heaven and see him again...
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All Hope Is Gone
RandomJenni is a 12 year old who lost her father 6 months ago. She is combating depression and regularly goes out and takes pictures of nature and attempted to write a book. She also has an issue with self harm
