Anyways what happened to me after that I got a serious case of depression I still loved Luke and Mike was my best friend now I have lost them both and my brother. So my life after that basically turned into one soap opera after the other the same damn thing every day more and more drama every day then I got sick of that shit I stopped caring I failed out of my classes I turned to drugs for help I was basically the biggest damn idiot of them all.
It got worse thought it did after I was done being pissed at the world I began being pissed at myself I got really into cutting and doing the eraser challenge. Yeah self harm I know I am stupid alright give it a rest it's not your turn to judge your turn is at the end of this god awful book to judge exactly how much it sucked it's my turn to judge myself.
I did try to get help for a while but after a while they decided It was useless that I was basically a side effect of life and I was hopeless so they just gave up trying and wasting there time on a delinquent such as myself.
